Marriage and Banana Bread...

Ok....... I know its been yonks since Ive been here or anywhere else, except the odd comment on faceache, oops I mean facebook.... just been trying to keep afloat here, still without any between school hours paid work.... just trying desperately not to go under.... but as yet, I keep bobbing to the surface, I refuse to drown until there is no hope left......I get just to the point of no return and something little comes along with lines me pockets with a bit of dosh to see us through the week, but do I hide every penny, do I hell, I sent a couple of little friendship gifts to a few and when I only had a fiver left last week I gave it to someone I know that was, I thought, more skint then me, found out later they spent it going out with friends and not on that bread and milk for their kids..... I live and learn lmfao

Im also sorting me house out with an option to sell it, which would be hard after this being our home like forever..... still at physio.. who would of thought that they could cock up both knees aye and by doing so, I'd lose me daytime babies, and cos of the knock on I'll probably loose me house....... life aye..... all cos I had to have surgery... wish I hadnt had either surgeries now........ oh well.... aint much I can do about it now but keep plodding along with my stubborn pigheaded strong YOU WONT BEAT ME attitude LOL - I dont share my problems with anyone, well, me matie Wendy who is my bestest matie here, knows everything, she is the one that came to court with me back before crimbo.....I'd trust her with my life.. other then her knowing stuff, I keep meself to me self, cos Ive learnt if you share to much or take people into ones confidence (people around here I mean - here meaning in this village) they eventually turn it around and use it against you for their own gain..... so I do what Ive always done all me life.... and try and suss and sort everything out meself ...

Anyways..... I doubt if anyone is still around, but Im posting this for me lads to one day read when Im long gone....

I WILL do me crimbo post lmfao...... it will be the latest crimbo post in the history of blobber :) - except I know its gonna be a tad long and I thought if I could post this, what happened last week, then it would ease me back into Twaddling :)

But first, before the crimbo post,I wanna get down in words what happened to me last Thursday.....

I had 25 quid in me pocket to go get some groceries for us all...... Im trying to keep the 4 of us on the little Im earning at the moment, only 4 cos our Tom now lives with his girlfriend, but with Jacob still in education and both my Ben and Sam being made redundant and of course me without me daytime nippers, just me before and after schoolers, you can imagine...... Im robbing Peter to pay Paul and Paul has already been mugged twice this week LMFAO...

So...... there I was in a the little grocery shop up in town with me 25 quid in me pocket, as I put a quid in to get a trolley I spied something that I have always always wanted... on a shelf near the shopping trolleys were rows and rows of Orchids..... oh my, I have always always wanted an orchid, but they are well expensive in the florists... and knowing me, them being posh plants, it would probably only live a week LOL.....

BUT... these beautiful orchids of all different colours and shapes were only a fiver ($8) I asked the bloke why they was so cheap, whats the matter with them I says...... nuffin he says..... they are advertised at that price to bring people in, and then those people will buy other stuff not just the Orchids...... but a fiver was a fifth of the money I had for groceries LOL and already me list was on its bare bones of its arse.....

I picked up this most beautiful orchid and then put it back and picked it up and put it back LOL...... well, I must of been mumbling to meself cos I heard next to me someone say.... arent they beautiful... to which I say, yes they are, Ive always wanted one, but I dont need one, not really, I have other things more important to buy, like FOOD lol..... well when I actually turned and looked who has spoken to me, there stood this tiny little VERY old lady... she to had picked up one of the orchids... snap (snap means jinx over here) she said, she had picked up the same shape and colour as the one I to was holding.... I again said, I dont really need one, anyways I would probably kill it within a week and again I put it back........she sorta giggled in an old lady sorta way and said, oh they are easy to keep, Ive had one 15 years, and I to dont need this one, and she put hers back to LOL..... we looked at each other and at the same time both picked one up and burst out laffing....... oh sod it I says to her..... lets both go crazy and get something we dont need in life but something for once we just WANT..... lets she says and burst out laffing again.... and I smiled at her and went on my way.....

Here it is, they had yellow ones and white ones, cream ones, plain purple sorta ones and then this one..... I just thought it was a bit different, like me LOL


I know this one is a little blurry but you can see just how ugly/pretty the flower is.....

Just inside the double doors to the actual shop there are buckets and buckets of flowers, you know, bunches.... they caught my eye.... dam and bugger...... I aint had flowers in the house since the ones that Iggy sent me after crimbo curled up eventually and died on me.... and there was a bucket full of purple and white flowers just crying at me to pick them up and put the Orchid back LOL..... so I did... I did what I did with the orchid, I picked them up and put the back, picked them up and put them back and actually said out loud.... dam Mel you DONT need them you greedy cow you have an orchid you dont need, now forward and onward.... and believe me I really truely DID say that to meself.... I didnt give a dam who was listening lol..... I had to be firm with meself, I had already over stepped the mark with having the 5 pound orchid in me shopping trolley....

So I quickly move away from the flowers, with a sorta sadness in my soul.. but there would be other times, better times.... and once again my house would be filled with jugs of flowers...

So I get to the fresh fruit and veggie part of the shop.... one thing I have emerced (is that spelt right? lol) in is my baking..... Ive always cooked and baked from scratch everyday, but now I could make a meal fit for a king from an onion LOL people cant believe how well we eat somedays out of nuffin :)..

Where was I, oh yes, the fruit and veg part of the shop....... so, my mind is whirling with what I would be cooking in the coming days and what I would need..... sweet potatoes... normal spuds..... brocolli, onions, leeks, swede, salad stuff, melon, apples, oranges, and the biggest bunch of bananas you could imagine (the fruit and veg in this particular shop is always the freshest and the cheapest anywhere - hence why I shop there)... as I turn round to put the bananas in me shopping trolley the same little old lady was next to me, I smile and she smiled back, then I looked at what she had in her shopping trolley......... bloody hell.... she had the same orchid as I had in mine, she had just put sweet potatoes and spuds and swede and all the other things the same as me in her trolley, hers was exactly the same as mine, except she HAD picked up the bunch of purple and white flowers.......

Oh my I say...... just look at our trolleys, they have the exact same things in, except for the flowers and they are in my trolley in my mind I says LOL...... how strange she answers......... Oh My Goodness I say out loud whilst looking her in the eyes...... YOU ARE ME WHEN IM OLD Im looking at me in the future, you are who I will be...... to which she burst out laffing, I mean right proper laffing...... and then she said...... oh my dear it will be a few years before you are my age, but it is strange how we have the same items in our trolleys....... yep I says... you are me, except I doubt I will shrink as small as you...... again she laffed so hard I thought her false teeth were gonna shoot out..... she was quite a posh little old lady, with a nicely spoken voice (unlike me lol)... oh cripes I say...... your stalking me...... and she laffed even more hahahaha

Go on she says, how old do you think I am..... ok, me being the diplomat, I says ohhhh well your me in the future and I reckon your about 65ish....... oh my, she let out the most funny sound... and sorta did a funny little jig lmfao...... you have made my day, you have made my week she said.... Im 83 she said with such pride..... now, I knew this beautiful cute little old lady wasnt anywhere near the 65 years I had guessed at..... but, hey..... I had made her day, her week..... you wait until I tell my daughter she said, you just wait until I tell her about you and the flowers and the sweet potatoes and you thinking Im you in the future and only 65.... and she reached out with her wrinkled old hands and wrapped them tight around me and hugged me until I thought I was gonna have to throw a tomatoe at her to let me go then she reach up and took my face in those old wrinkly hands and she kissed my face and said thank you..... and she then just continued on her way....

Well. lordy...... what am I like LOL...... I aint normal right...... who says things like that to little old strangers in grocery shops....

So........ I have to rethink me list in me head cos I had the orchid in me trolley which was a fifth of the money I had to spend.... so I whizzed around the rest of the shop.... bread flour, yeast, eggs, butter, chorizo sausage...... I aint bought bread for over 5 weeks, I make bread twice a day and pizza dough..... so I bought a huge bag of flour...... adding everything up in me head as I went along.... I would hate to get to the checkout and not have enough money on me..... I know I would make a joke out of it, if that happened, but inside I would die of embarrassment lol....

Anyways...... there are a couple of people in front of me in the queue so I stand in line to wait me turn, I had nowhere near a full trolley but too much to put in a wire basket... when I see out of the corner of me eye that someone had joined the queue behind me..... as I turn round (cos Im nosey like that) there stands this bloke, about 50ish holding just 3 items in his hands, he smiles the most amazing huge smile at me..... I bet inside he was thinking....... sod it, that bloody woman in front has a trolley and I only had 3 items, I'll be here ages...... of course, Im only guessing that those there his thoughts lol

I look at his 3 items then look at my half trolley and turn around to face him and say........ would you like to go in front of me seeing as you only have a few things, cos I bet you are swearing at me inside your head cos I have half a trolley full....... he continues to beam this huge smile....I dont think he had false teeth LMFAO.... are you sure he says..... well, I says..... I only do ONE good deed a day, and it looks like your the lucky one..... BUT my one good deed comes with a consequence...... ok, he says, still beaming, and that consequence would be what? he says... actually I say, it comes with 2 LOL..... oh now ya pushing it he says, still beaming.... ok spill them, what are they........ ok.. first you have to promise to keep smiling at people today cos it might be the only smile they get during the day...... done, he says........ and, I say..... you have to pay it forward..... blank look on his face...... yes I repeat, you have to pay it forward, you have to pay forward a good deed to a total stranger today with no gain for yourself....... he was still smiling as he said...... DONE, and he slipped past me to stand in front with his 3 items..... as his turn comes up he leaves the queue and walks over to the stand where the bunches of flowers were and quickly picks up a bunch, only the dam bloody same bunch that I had put back about 4 times lol....... inside I thought..... dam git, someone is lucky, they are getting flowers from Mr Smiley man.... he puts them on the checkout with his other items.... the woman rings them up, he pays with cash, then turns around and hands the flowers to me....... now there was blank stares from me....... there you go he said....... Im paying it forward.....what I say?...... he said.... I was watching you interact with that little old lady, I was behind you outside where the orchids were, and I listened to what you were saying and I watched as you umm'd and arr'd over the flowers, then again I listened and watched you with the same little lady at the veggies, and I saw how you made a complete strangers day, someone you didnt even know, and now you have made mine with your kindess........ and he holds out the flowers and says, these are for you.... WILL YOU MARRY ME ....... hahahahahaha I take the flowers and he is beaming and I say.......

Dam, I cant this afternoon I have to make banana bread...... to which he creases up laffing and winks at me and walks out the door laffing......

There....... I lost me chance LMFAO...... probably my only ever chance at someone asking me to marry them hahahahaha ok I know he wasnt serious, but still...... why oh why did I say I had to make banana bread... what am I like lmfao

These are the flowers and I know they look pink but they aint they are mauve....

Dam, I wonder where he might of taken me on honeymoon, I never did have a proper one first time round LOL..

Ok enough boring Twaddling for one evening...... its good to be back..

OXO