Sunday, 4 April 2010

Spring Reflections..

ok...... I dont know where the last few weeks have gone.... a dear friends hubby has just found out his 'strange turn' the week before last, is due to an egg sized brain tumour nestled behind his eye socket, so worrying times for my friend, and their 2 girls and young son whom I have childminded for the past 5 years...

I saw me friend yesterday outside our village shop and asked how things were going... she said easter would be strange this year.... to which I replied...... well, you wont have to buy Richard an easter egg, not if his tumour is egg shaped, least that saves a bit of money.... to which she replied....... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhahahahaha fank you Mel for being you, everyone has pussyfooted around, but you, are just you.... I'll tell Richard your words they will make him laff LOL..... sometimes I think I need to keep me mouth shut LOL...

And another friend is just starting on the road called 'divorce street' and she thinks life aint gonna change for her and her 16 and 13 year old.... oh my.... except, I think she already has someone lined up on the side lines...... *rolling me eyes* but as usual, I will be there for her....

Anyways.... this is just a quickie...... being Easter Sunday and all...... as you know I dont 'do god' even though many says he does me lol....

Ive had a couple of very 'trying' days this week.... many also uncontrollable tears.... desperately trying to figure things out on me own on many aspects of life..... and Ive been bashing meself up bigtime.....

BUT.......

When I got up this morning an tiptoed down the stairs as to not wake anyone up, you know, to bung the kettle on and let me chickens out and move me car off the Baptists Chappels forcourt (the only place to park last night when I got in from a reflective tearful drive) or that vicar will be knocking me up when church starts.....

This is what I saw as I was half awake waiting for the kettle to boil......



I have this little wire beaded heart hanging from the handle of one of me kitchen cupboards.... and there reflecting on me tiles was this heart shape..... the strange thing is the sun was not shining through me kitchen window cos its to early in the day.... I couldnt work out how there was a shaddow...... then I followed the line of the light and it was coming through my kitchen roof skylight window which was being reflected off me twat neighbours open window......

bloody hell..... DO YOU THINK ITS A SIGN FROM GOD........... and dont say a sign of madness LOL

Those that 'do god' have the most special of days........ and those that dont do him, well, still have a special day lol

Be safe and be kind to one another...

love you..

x

74 comments:

Elaine said...

What terrible news about your friend's husband. Crossing me toes and fingers for him. x

(I just wrote 'me' instead of 'my'. Can you see the effect you have on us? LoL.)

Have yourself a wonderful tear-free and God-free Easter. There is so much love in your house, I'm not surprised the heart was there this morning. I'm surprised you don't wake up with angels playing harps in your bedroom :)

Hugs. x

Lynn said...

Even though I dont know you very well you are just the sweetest woman with a huge heart, Im so sorry to hear about your friends husband and what a wonderful reflection you got while waiting for your coffee, Happy Easter to you and your family!

Dumdad said...

Heart-shaped images appearing as if by magic - maybe it is a sign, who knows?! I don't do God either but Happy Easter anyway.

inlandempiregirl said...

It is a sign from God. He loves you and so do I. Happy Easter.

Lee Harris said...

Okay. I think the Universe has conspired to make you smile regardless of the assist from your twat neighbor........... Enjoy the reflection and remember that you are loved and appreciated by many folks there and on this side of the Atlantic......

Charles Gramlich said...

So sorry to hear about your friend. That kind of thing terrifies me.

Lady in red said...

so sorry about your mate's hubby........I bet your words were just what they needed.

When I was going through cancer the hardest thing was the friends and family who either pussyfooted around or avoided me altogether. It is the friends who kept me laughing who I still remember today and that was 9 yrs ago.

The heart was there to remind you that you have a heart to be cherished by many. I don't do god either but I do believe that fate sends us signs.

You made a very hard decision last week but it had to be made don't beat yourself up for doing more than others did. But sometimes it does do us good to cry even those of us who dont do crying.

Go Figure said...

MT: You know, in your heart, that it was God's light shining to show you that He is there for you, waiting patiently.

Jen said...

I love those signs. Just when you need them, they appear.

Coral said...

I know what you mean about the crying bit, I don't do it often, and when I do it, not well, very ugly I do gets!

I am also tearful at the moment, are the planets aligned?

Keep strong, mate!
xxxxx
See me blog for Tim photos, gad, that child is beautiful!

Akelamalu said...

I'm sorry to hear about your friend's husband Mel, I'll remember him when I'm sending Reiki.

The heart is a lovely thing to find and I would say it's definitely a sign for you to take heart, things will get better. Well let's face it things couldn't really get a lot worse could they hon?

Know I'm thinking of you and sending positive thoughts and good vibes and most importantly much love. xxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

Hope everyone had a super Easter, its Bank Holiday Monday here and schools are now off for a fortnight.....

We had a super day yesterday, did the veg then shoved a turkey (our Tom bought) and a pork roast in the oven then we all buggered off up 'The Shoe Inn' at Exton for a couple of hours, the shoe is a very old pub about 200 years old I think sitting on the mean river in a tiny weenie little hamlet, with beautiful very old houses and well posh people around lol.... got back home to the scrummous smell of dinner cook just needing to be dished up...... that with proper english trifle, plenty of wine and then a vast array of scrummous cheeses, it made for a much needed loved filled 'together day'....

MarmiteToasty said...

And Iggy, the beautiful Orchid you gifted me took centre place on our Easter Dinner table along with a bunch of daffs from the garden..... :)

~((((Elaine)))~ well, dear Richard will be the 4th friend that I have that is going through this..... my 3 other friends have survived, so I aint giving up hope....

LOL@harp playing angels :) you are so funny......xxxxxxxx

~(((Lyn)))~ goodness, fanks for your kind words...... and it was TEA, I cant even begin to wake in the morning without me first mug of tea :).....xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Dumdad)))~ well Im a firm believer in 'signs' ask me doodle matie Wendy (yep I have 2 friends named Wendy)... we laff about the signs in life that come along lol.... Hope you had a wonderful Easter weekend with your family...xxxxxxx

~((((InlandEmpireGirl))))~ seeing the little heart reflection. whisked my mind back to when I was in Winchester Cathedral, willing a sign to happen lol.... I love you to, and your gorgeous family...xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((((((Lee Harris))))))))~ geez fanks, I do feel blessed most of the time, and an ungrateful cow the rest LOL.....xxxxxxx

~((((Charles))))~ Its very scarey aye.... ya just dont know whats around the corner....Bam and something like this could happen to anyone... xxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Lady)))~ well I try to just be me when I talk with friends, no matter what the situation.... one day I will blob about when my dearest friend Tina was dying and the laffs (yes we did) that we had in the weeks leading up to her death...

yep that decision was difficult last week, but, thats not what the emotional rollercoaster this week has been about.... but this to will pass :)....xxxxxxx

~(((((((((((GoFigure))))))))))~ maybe Im just to dam stubborn to take these signs onboard :)... maybe I need guidance lol...xxxxxxxxx

~(((((((((Jen))))))))))~ yep and the most precious sign arrived from you and your family in the week.... do you know how precious you are, and how stuffed we was yesterday munching through the chocolate popcorn lmfao..... LOVE YOU.......xxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((Coral)))))~ I wish I could made things better for you and Tim.... know you are constantly in my thoughts....

oh I dont cry often but when I do, jebus the flood gates open and I look more of a mess then I usually do, with huge puffy eyes and snot and a red face and I have to not be seen in public for hours lmfao.... its enough to frighten children and old people......xxxxxxx

~(((((((((Ake))))))))~ yeah my poor matie Nikki - boom right out of the blue...... but she knows Im there for her and the kids no matter what time of night or day.... its all I can do, is be there..... they will get through this....

Ake, my house is filled with heart things :) I have a passion for them, daft right, seeing as how Im a hard hearted old cow LOL....

and you know, Im lucky really, even in the situation Ive found meself in over the past very very difficult 18 months..... I have so much compared with so many, and I do not mean material things...

I just need to live and not just exist like I have this past 18 months.... just dont know how to accomplish that yet, but something will come up when I least expect it.... :) love you girl...xxxxxxx

Intense Guy said...

:) Sometimes those "signs" are mighty hard to read and harder yet to understand.

*Hugs*

Sounds like you had a wonderful meal with your boys...

I hope your egg-head neighbor recovers and that your rose-colored glasses wearing friend that is looking for a painless divorce has things go as smoothly as they can.

And know I'm going to imagine the Vicar knocking you up... and on Easter morning at that...

Lynn said...

OOPS sorry I cant read lol I sometimes love a good cup of hot green tea in the morning, and Im so glad you had a wonderful Sunday, the food sounds so yummmmmy!!

Gary said...

Mel,

With all the happenings I would consider it a blessing that you even noticed the heart shaped vision reflected through the glass by the sunlight. To me it means that you are open to beauty and magic and possibility. Therefore, hope springs eternal.

Best to you and your friends. Keep noticing...

Sparkless said...

Aww the world needs more people like you! I always smile when I read your posts and that is worth more than all the money in the world! You are priceless!

Deanna said...

Your friend is very lucky to have you. I can tell you that I treasured those who made me laugh when I traveled the dark road of the big C.

Wish I could make you laugh! That heart couldn't help showing itself to you. It was mirroring the heart of a wonderful woman.

Oh, and I know God does you. But it'll be our little secret. Shhhh.

Love ya sweet lady.

Deanna

Flowerpot said...

I am so sorry about your friend's husband and keep everytihng crossed for him. But the story about the heart is just lovely - and so apt for you, Marmie! You take care nowxxx

Toriz said...

I'm so sorry about your friend's husband.


I don't do God either... I'm told he's on holiday anyway. Sorry to those who do God, but he never seems to be about when he's needed, so I think the holiday thing might be true. ;)

basicliving@backtobasicliving.com said...

How lucky your friend is to have you there to bring her laughter during such a difficult time.

The heart was there to comfort yours! And to let you know that your big heart is appreciated.

Your Easter Sunday sounds like it was full of fun and love - and yummy food!

(((hugs)))

Pamela said...

Perhaps the heart was some kind of encouraging response to your "reflective" tearful drive...


(Hope your friend soon recognizes the error of including that "third" party in such a life altering decision. sigh.)

Lena said...

Hoping your mate's fellow's alright. My friends little girl had a similar benign tumour when she was four. She's now 14 and in good health so here's hoping it'll be a battle he wins!

I'll be thinking of you but for now I need to go break some more choccy eggs off my son's forehead - something that they do religiously every Easter.

buffalodick said...

In moments of quiet reflection, we sometimes hear better.. Life isn't good or bad, it is Life, and what we make of it- nobody gets through unscathed, and nobody gets out alive.
Enjoy what you can, when you can!

Snappy Di said...

The heart shape on your tile is delightful!

Oh, and if you are going to show up at my place for breakfast tomorrow, you'd better get on out the door because you have a very long trip ahead of you. LOL

Thanks for stopping by today and commenting.

Di
The Blue Ridge Gal

Maggie May said...

Terrible news about your friend's husband . Hoping they can treat it.
Um...... the egg joke ..... well only for people with excellent sense of humour. You were lucky that they had that & you didn't get an egg shaped head with the help of a hammer!

Definitely a sign from God...that shadow!!!!! awesome.
Hope you had a very Happy Easter.

Nuts in May

woodsong said...

Well, if the vicar's knocking you up, I'd say you're doin' God...

:)

Lulda Casadaga said...

Mel...sorry for the double penetration response yesterday...computers can be fickle at times! I hope you have a great weekend!! :)

Lisa said...

Are yo telling me that if you park in the church lot overnight, the vicar will get you pregnant??!? Strange place you live in. Over here, they just give you a warning or parking ticket, not "knock you up"!!

rtfgvb767 said...

IS VERY GOOD..............................

Intense Guy said...

Happy Birthday Tom!!!!

:)

jolie-jordan said...

Tears wash the soul and help to release stress. Let them come and then pick yourself up and get on with it. Look for Joy.

Easter ended up being a sad time for me and mine. Dinner was a can of chili with saltines. We were a quiet bunch.

Jolie

Sorrow said...

Nope, just a message from your heart, sending you a bit O love when you need it!
laughing
Sending laid eggs of love and laughter your way...
and of course (((HUGS)))

LadyStyx said...

*tippie toes in*

*quietly sets down to enjoy the heart shadow while sharing a spot of tea with ya*

Cindy said...

Knocked up by the vicar- that was too funny!
Hope your friend is doing better by now.
Stop by if you need a good laugh...

Bina said...

So sorry to hear about your friend's husband. Hope they get it out and he'll be okay.

And did you know I'm getting divorced as well? I had blogged all about it but deleted those posts cause I am (mostly) over it. Realized that I am MUCH happier without him!

I freaking love that picture! That is freaking awesome!

MarmiteToasty said...

Sorry I aint been around again.......schools have been off for a fortnight so I had nippers and we was out most days, god knows I needed the dosh lol, and the sunshine has arrived at long last so have spent much time in the garden and doing dump runs and trying to declutter the house with more dump runs, and selling stuff on Ebay and other sites, and what with out Toms birthday weekend and all me lads around over the past few weekends, so all in all Ive not had time to sit much at the computer, except for comments on facebook upon passing.....

I promise I will try and be a better blobber all round in the coming week..... exhaustion leaves me to knackered in the evenings to sit and do a proper post, I have soooooo much I wanna get down though, so fingers crossed over the weekend aye..... not that anyone is still here lmfao..

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((Iggy))))~ Im usually pretty good with signs but not so much of late lol....

Gotta love a good knocking up by a vicar lmfao...xxxxxxxxxx

~(((Lynn)))~ eewwwwwwww green tea, thats like drinking seaweed water lol...xxxxxx

~(((((Gary)))))~ much going on that I aint even mentioned on here, but you sort understand :)... I will admit Im one of the few around here that notice the 'little things' in life, most are to busy trying to capture greatness lol.....xxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Sparkless)))~ blimey matie, fanks :) Ive never been called priceless before lol.... worthless a few times by certain people but never priceless lol...xxxxxx

~((((Deanna))))~ My friend has sent her lad back this week for me to have before school, she said he needs the stability and the funny mornings that I offer.... and this morning she said, the lad has come out of his sad mood since he has been back with me.... so alls good....xxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Flowerpot))))~ scary times for my friends especially the hubby.. surgery soon, only time will tell the outcome....xxxxxx

~(((Toriz)))~ fanks for ringing me it was a lovely surprise.... sometimes I wanna do god but I doubt he would have me lol....xxxxx

~(((Basicliving)))~ my friend has laffed lots this week as she has dropped her lad off in the mornings, and she knows Im there always whatever time of night or day...xxxxxx

~((((Pamela)))~ I have those drives sometimes...... I need them to clear me mind... when things sometimes get so overwhelming I drive off into the sunset or the rain lol and have a right proper pity party complete with tears and puffy faces and howling lmfao.... my poor matie Wendy over here is the only one that understands and is always there for me....xxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Lena)))~ me maties tumour is the size of his fist, things aint good, but there is always hope... there has to be.... LOL@noggin breaking :)....xxxxxxxxx

~(((((Buff))))))~ you of all people seem to understand me....... fanks for that....xxxxxx

~((Snappy)))))~ I bet you didnt know Ive been a blurker of yours for about 2 years LOL....xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((((Maggie))))))~ I do seem to know who and who I cant yoke with :), and me matie I have known for so long and I knew its what she needed to hear..

((maggie)) hugs to you, you are in my thoughts and on me list of 'GOD DO SOMETHING'....xxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Lulda)))~ Ive heard and known of so many people that have recovered from the most horrendous things, Im just hoping Richard is one of them....

Oh me twat neighbour, you wait til I so me snow post which I will do after me crimbo post this weekend, it was just the funniest, Im surprised he still lives there lmfao....xxxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((Woodsong)))))~ Id be grateful for any 'knocking up' at the moment lol I wonder if one can really heal over lmfao....xxxxx

~(((((((((Lisa)))))))))~ :) its not really a car park, just a little forecourt enough for 2 cars... and Im still of pregnatable age I'll have you know lmfao......xxxxx

~(((Iggy)))~ fanks Iggy he had a lovely day, I just wish he was little again as I do all me lads :)...xxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((((((((((Jolie)))))))))))~ I have to do the tear thing once in a while.... or I would go insane, sometimes I have so much to carry for everyone, and something has to give, so best to have a couple of hours of tears and driving in a pity party then all is well for a while lmfao, its so hard not to have someone to 'share' things with, you know, someone perminent that cares... oh well....

:( Saltines and a tin of chilli :( thinking saltines are biscuits with salt on... you wait dear jolie when I win the lottery.... you will dine like the queen you really are.....xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((Sorrow))))~ love and hugs backatcha girl :)...xxxxxx

~(((((((((LadyStyX)))))))))~ bloody do the hoovering whilst ya here will ya lol.....one day we will all have a proper natter over a cup of tea :)..xxxxxx

~(((((Cindy)))))~ sometimes I get knocked up by the milkman to :)... and blob post thing so made me laff girl lol....xxxxxxx

~((((((((((Bina))))))))))))~ I wont say 'about time' cos thats just not right, but about time girl lol you couldnt go on like you was...... and I havent been able to get onto your blob for months, did you close it cos now I can get in.... I thought you had locked the doors on me.....xxxxxxx

WomanHonorThyself said...

sorry about the sad news but Keep the faith..and hey ..thanks for the visit to WHT!:)

goatman said...

Light appears in the oddest of places to cast the shadow of reflection.
My best to you as the globe turns and we try to cope with the changes.

buffalodick said...

Write a few words once in a while, just so we know you are still kicking!

buffalodick said...

The best way to have friends is to be one. Haven't heard from you, and the only way I track folks is their comments on my blog..sorry you have been too busy to say Hello..

jolie-jordan said...

Thanks for stopping by Mel and I want to wish you a very Happy Mother's Day too.

I hope you are having a special day as you are truly a special Mom.

I'm tending to my sickly Grandson (J-beau) today and loving every minute with him. He makes my heart sing just having him near.

Love you kiddo...Jolie

JBelle said...

:'(

Toriz said...

Sorry I took so long getting back on here. I've been a bad blogger lately.


Anyway, I'm glad the phone call was a nice surprise. It was nice talking to you. :)

jolie-jordan said...

Dammit it Mel...I've had it.

You simply need to stop neglecting me and the rest of your friends and readers.

I want a nice long post from you and I want you to sit aside some time to write at least one a week. I promise...you will feel better knowing you have made us happy plus getting life down in print makes worries seem much smaller.

I try not to be a bossy witch but this neglect has gotten out of hand.

Love you sweets and miss you too.

Please reply promply or I may be forced to start a petition. You don't want to make me beg...do you?

J-

Cedar Street Kid said...

well, MT, I guess that I have not checked in for awhile, and I am glad that I did. This was a delightful post, and the images were inspiring. Yes, MT, there is a God, and yes, he is pat of your life everyday whether you know it or not.

jolie-jordan said...

I'm bugging you again today. Did England sink into the ocean? Have you heard from Robin? I'm concerned for her. I'm still alive here in Doodle land...in case you are wondering.

Love you brat face.

Jolie

jolie-jordan said...

33 days since you wrote a post. Hummmmp!!

MarmiteToasty said...

Blimey ITS ME lol..... dusting this place off, clearing out all the empty fizzy drink tins and beer bottles... ok, whats that sticky patch on the floor..... whose been? oh, never mind lol

((((WHT)))) well the news is that Richard had his Brain operation last Monday week, it was touch an go on Wednesday and my matie was called in being told that its make or break today..... I aint prayed before but I did have a quiet word incase GOD is real.... Richard survived the day and touch wood is making small progress..... his head is the size of a football though and I think he appreciated me saying so LMFAO.....xxxxx

~(((((goatman)))))~ Im forever seeing heart shapes in strange places lol.... still kicking, but not footballs no more :)...xxxxx

~(((((((((((((((((Buff)))))))))))~ I so need to get back here, I have so much I need to document. and Ive so missed everyone and this place and I NEED to be here.....xxxxxxxxx please forgive me..

~((((((Jolie)))))))~ cough, muvvers day here was last month, us Brits are always just one step ahead of ya :)... love ya to ya numpty...xxxxxxxx

~((((((JBelle))))))~ so sorry about your beautiful Chow... xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((ToriZ)))~ I dont know whats the matter with me.... I havent been able to have uninterupted time on the computer enough to do a post..... there is always someone flitting around or needing the computer.... but Im gonna try harder... cos I miss everyone....xxxxxx

~((((((Jolie))))))~ I have much to write about, so much so my brain is overflowing lol.... but, to be honest I cant see why anyone would wanna read my rubbish lol... never beg for anything..... I tried that once and it comes back and bites ya in the arse lol....xxxxxxx

~((((((Cedar))))))))~ I need to get my arse in gear and get back into a routine.... but just been trying to survive life and all the shit it keeps piling on my shoulders.... so, maybe you could ask your god to GIVE ME A BLEEDIN BREAK will ya ;)....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((Jolie)))))))))))~ oh hush, Im hanging on to my internet connect with my finger tips lol.... our only luxury :)... LOL@you counting the days since a post....

Today I will try to post...... xxxxxxxx

Deanna said...

Just popping in to let you know that I think of you often. xoxoxox

Deanna

Lena said...

Just a quick poopsiedoo....!

Deb said...

Hi stranger! I love it when a little magic enters our life...just wished it happened on a more regular basis. I have missed visiting with you...you always manage to make me smile. Take care.

buffalodick said...

If you don't post soon, I will kick your bony ass into sub-orbit..

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Deanna)))~ I think of everyone all the time.... dam you lot are buzzing around me head like flies on a chicken poo :)...xxxxxx

~(((Lena))))~ :) ... xxxxxx

~((((Deb))))~ hey you.... oh Ive been seeing lots of hearts on different things lately..... you will NOT believe where I saw one.... I take them as signs... signs of what I aint sure, but most certainly sings of something........ maybe a sign that Im mad lol....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((((Buff)))))))))))~ ok ok ok you win lmfao :) ..xxxxxxxxxx

Catherine Mackie said...

I only read the post about the parrot and I must tell you that it is the only thing I have read on these blogs that has made me LMFAO!!! It was hilarious! You have a rare way with words. I could actually picture everything as it was happening. RIP Fat Heather.

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((Catherine)))~ welcome to the mad house, sorry I have not been posting of late, ok, for months lol... just life got in the way.... and the struggle to survive...

you can always scroll back and read some more of the crazy stuff that does on in my life lol....

fanks for finding me :)

x

Kirby said...

Mel.. hoping you can help me. My good friend now living in Brit land Mother passed tonight, here in US. I want to have something there for her when she gets home - flowers and something she can plant too. She's living in Oakley - any suggestions of places that could help? Thanks so much, her Mom was a wonderful person and unfortunetaly she passed about an hour ago and last I heard Laura's flight was 6 am brit time today - so about 20 mins ago...

youssef said...

thinks you

Sujay said...

So beautiful this site.I like it.Thank you.

glory said...

thanks