Saturday, 12 July 2008

Aint Gonna Be Around For A Bit...

Ok............Had me main consultant on Thursday(2 days ago)....... news not good........ he put me on the emergency operating list........he says he aint given up on me yet......he also called me stubborn and brave and strong, which he said in this instance was a compliment...I do not want to be any of these things anymore, I want someone to be brave for me and strong for me, I just want to sleep...... Friday (yesterday) I got a phone call from the hospital at Haslar to say I need to be at the Naval hospital for 7.00am Monday morning and expect to be in for between 3-10 days.... I told them 3 days... she to called me stubborn.....

He told me he had a few tricks up his sleeve before the BIG DECISION was taken.... he told me he would knock me out completely this time and no camera in theatre... he said the pain will be horrific so I will be drugged out of it for a couple of days... he told he HE HAD to try this to see if it works..... he said he is on my side.... he said he will also have to make decisions as he goes along.... and I HAVE to trust him.....

Im finding it very difficult of late to trust anyone..

It has not given me much time to organise things home here once again......... I just want it to end..... Im had enough now....... Im tired and exhausted by it all...... Im worn out....... Im scared......I feel alone more then ever......

Sorry to those I have not emailed of late.... Ive been trying to keep meself to meself and deal with this the best I can under extreme circumstances...... I know I owe so many maties emails.... please forgive me..... also please forgive me for not getting to everyones blobs......

I need my knight in shining armour to come and hold my hand this time more then ever....but I cant even hear the horse galloping my way......

So, back I go into Hospital with the old and infirm, the toothless, the dribbles and moans....... I really dont know if I can do this again.... not again.... I need a light to look towards.... a focus...... a future...... and Im finding it very difficult to see anything...... everything Ive ever loved in life has always been taken from me, anyone I ever loved disappeared from my life..... and Im finding that no matter how good a person I am, and I KNOW I am.... pure and honest happieness is not in my future.... when there is not much in tomorrow to keep me going, its hard.....

The very foundations on which I have built my life have been shaken and the edges have started to crumble....

A book arrived in the post for me yesterday, its a signed copy by me most favourite author and the book is titled 'Hold On' I take this as a sign..... except my signs have failed me this past year....but at least I will have a book to read whilst in hospital.... so fank you friend for the book, you will never realise the joy in my heart and the tears in my eyes when it arrived from you....I will treasure it always... always....

Im going to keep me head down and keep meself to meself this time.... I will take in me writing papers and write to me 'cor blimey doodle penpals'..... I NEED to be out by the weekend, no matter what.... no matter what.....

Jebus how much do I need a break, a holiday... time out.... time to recover, to grow to heal my body heart and soul.... how much do I need to take flight.....how much do I need to be in Paradise....

So I aint gonna be around for a bit........ be safe.......



And hey, even though this post might sound dismal and sad and depressing...... its not, Im not, the other side of me is still the same, Im still the same, I still laff everyday.... I still find humour in most things....... Im just tired so very tired thats all.... SO DONT WORRY Im gonna be fine.....I truely am.... :)

ps.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSAN... hope this your special day is filled with love and laughter and you are surrounded by those that love you.... know that I do, even from all these miles away.... x

X

65 comments:

laughingwolf said...

dang mt, prayers for your speedy recovery, hon!

soul pumpkin said...

we'll all be here when you return in three days...
peace
love
healing vibes...

SP

ciara said...

((((mel)))))sorry you have to go through this again. i want to be one of your cor blimey doodle pen pals lol if i send letters to your home will you get them at some point? or is there an addy for the hospital? of course it takes a few days for our mail to get there, i'm sure. you know i love ya and will be thinking of you. xoxoxoxo

Lehners in France said...

Toastie. You have your wonderful boys to come home to. That's more than I have and me Mum had. We really are gunning for you and your consultant's David Nixon sleeve. Massive Hugs. France (((X000X)))

~:*:*:Pixie:*:*:~ said...

Mel, please send me an addy???

I love you.

susan said...

Mel,
Thank you for the Birthday wishes!

If you can. If you can trust. Please trust you doctor and do what he/she says. Ok.

You will be in my thoughts everyday.

Till I hear from you again, much love,
Susan

Mei Del said...

keeping my fingers crossed for you it all goes well next week. sending you a huge virtual hug and get well thoughts xx

Maggie May said...

Really, really sorry. You are a brave lady and I will be sending up prayers & thinking of you. keep trekking & hold on there........

ChrisB said...

You know we will all be rooting for you. Will be saying prayers and keeping everything crossed that all goes well for you.

little wanderer said...

shit shit poo poo shit arghhhhhh
be thinking off ya and please look after yourslef oodles of (((((((()))))))) and xxxxxxxxxx

Lady in red said...

I might just be visiting you if heaven forbid you are still there at the end of the week. Mother goes in for her next op to try to sort out her knee on Thursday.

I have been feeling stiff and bruised from all the walking we did at Goodwood yesterday reminding me that I am so unfit at the moment. But reading your blog reminds me how lucky I am that I can still walk that distance with nothing worse than a few aches. you remind me how much my mum is missing in all the things she loves to do but hasn't been able to do for so long now.

Here is hoping that this week you will both come out of that hospital with knees that won't need any more treatment.

Ol' Lady said...

Hang on mel...you'll get through this...
wish I could get on a plane...I would come and look after ya
hugs & prayers across the staples to ya

JBelle said...

aw, nuts. fiddle dee dee. I think your physio is right: you are brave. And it must be so exhausting. Try taking it one day at a time--maybe that will be easier, somehow. There is a big package for you from the Chows that will go out mid-week next week. It'll be waiting when you get back. Godspeed, Dear One.

Phil said...

If it was at all possible, I'd bring my kids in to read Garfield comic strips to you. It's not the cartoon that would bring a huge smile to your face, but the way both my kids just crack up with delight when they read Garfield. I find a huge grin on my face when they're giggling hysterically at the musings of that old cat.

Anyway, we're wishing you the best from up here in North Idaho. You've gone through so much recently, you ought to receive some kind of royal award for perseverance!

LadyStyx said...

*HUGZ*
@>--->--------


We'll all be waiting on you when you get out. I'll be sitting over here>>>>>>>>>>>>>
...keeping you in my thoughts for quick healing and peace of mind.

Charles Gramlich said...

I'm very sorry the news was not good. I can imagine that you are scared. Sometimes it seems stuff just keeps happening. I'm wishing you well and sending you white light. Hang in.

Jen said...

You're still in my prayers everyday. And will be especially on Monday. God bless.

Totty Teabag said...

Heal quickly and well, Toastie, but listen to your body when it says I need to rest.

Tori_z said...

*Hugs* Just keep fighting as best you can and you'll know that - no matter what happens - you (and your consultant) did everything you could.

And, when it's all over with, come and visit me and my Mam and I will take you up to see the mountains. :)

buffalodickdy said...

Like I said before, me and THE BIG GUY don't talk to each other much, so when I ask a favor of HIM, he's usually pretty good about granting it...I'm asking for your complete and speedy recovery and a return to your normal life, safe and sound...That's all I got- along with a big, American bear hug for you...

Akelamalu said...

Oh honey you know I'm rooting for you don't you? You're in my thoughts and I'm drawing on everything I know to send good vibes to you and oodles of Reiki is contstantly winging it's way to you. You'll be fine, I know it, I feel it in me water! xxxx

Lisa said...

Oh Cr*p! You know how sorry we ALL are about your continuing problems. I wish there was something I could do for you. I have asked for addy before, so if you still have my email (LisaAlso AT aol DOT com, hint hint) get one of your boys to send it to me. At least I can send a card or a box of rubber gloves (no, you have enough) or some tomatoes and blackberries or a PlayGirl magazine with nakid mens in it! You could share with the other old biddies and get their hearts pumping again.

I love you, Mel. And we are all thinking of you!!

Frum Helen Back said...

Super Bummer Mel. I'm so sorry you have to have more pain.

Intense Guy said...

I hope you a speedy and complete recovery - and that the pain isn't what they advertize.

When you get back, everyone will be very happy to see you - all us bloggers and Janet, Mabel and Cedric too.

jolie-jordan said...

I'll be sending good thoughts and good wishes your way and hoping for a very speedy recovery for you. I know this time the surgery will do the trick and soon you will being climbing mountains.

Think positive Marmie and remember You are never alone. Many, many of us out here are busy rooting for you. I see a glow at the end of the long assed ride waiting to greet you and show you the good that is to come out of this. And some good will sneak out...it always does even when it looks bleak.

Love and Luck my girl...
xxxJolie

Kati said...

sending (((((HUGS))))) and PRAYERS and more (((((HUGS))))) Toasty. I wish you and your surgeon all the luck in the world, on this one!!!!

Mei Del said...

sending you good thoughts today x0x

Scots said...

Marmy babes

My horse is galloping as fast as she can .... but all this shiny armour is slowing her down!!!

So so so sorry that I return to find you unwell ... sending you huge hugs

Scotz xxx and McTavish xxx

jackie said...

I want someone to be brave for me and strong for me

Your wish is His desire. The choice is your's...yes, or no.

My prayers are with you; for a speedy recovery and your answer of "yes".

Tori_z said...

Keeping you in my thoughts today... Good luck! *hugs*

cast in the name of god, ye not guilty said...

Love and hugs from Texas! Be strong Mel, you're a tough lady and you'll get through this. Can't wait to hear about your adventures with the old gummy dribblers and the cute nursey mens! See if ya can't snag a nice one to come pop in and check on ya every once in a while!

<3 <3 <3 Mini Mel

JeanneH said...

Once again, Mel, you will be in my prayers...for quick healing this time, for an end to all this...just keep your chin up...sorry, I didn't se this until Monday morning...busy weekend. So, I know you're not reading this for a few days. But just know, when you do, that I have been praying for you, girl. Hopefully the "trick" the doc had up his sleeve worked!! Love you girl - hang n there. Anxious to hear how you are....xoxoxox Jeanne in Idaho

JeanieSpokane said...

Ok, Marmie. I'm getting out the Big Guns - the ones where I have a heart to heart out on my front porch with God. Out loud. Loud enough for the neighbors to think I'm nuts. Here, Marmie, is my hand for you to hold. It's connected to a rope that I have tethered to my Knight in Shining Armour - I'm loaning him to you. He looks and sounds like Antonio Banderas, so keep your knickers on!

Trust your doc and trust yourself. You are tough, brave, stubborn, and funny as hell.

Love you!

Jeanie

Bay Views said...

Don't worry, Marmy, British Doctors almost always get it right the second time if you live through the first. You'll be dancing with your Knight in no time. (have him leave the shining armor off, though.

Hammer said...

I send you my very best for a speedy recovery.

Idaho Escapee said...

Mizz Marmee, the logical thing for me to say would be, "well, for whatever reason, it's time to face the music"...whenever I knew I was going to go thru a painful episode, I would always try to think past it...so, I'd be eager to get "it" over with, so I could reclaim my life. So that's something you might try; look past it. Anyway, I'm rooting for you and whatever happens, you'll come out of it. I know I can offer nothing but words, but all of my best wishes are with ya.

Coral said...

I don't know what to say, I am so sorry for you. I will phone on Friday to see if you are home.

Peace and serenity

xxxxx


pixie, mail me please

Casdok said...

Everything crossed for you! :)

Anonymous said...

May the wish of a speedy and pain free recovery come true. The Stickman

Queenie said...

Crap timing matie, I'm in on Sept 10th, wish we could have been in together. What fun the two of us crapping ourselves together!!!!
Glad I popped by to see how your doing, I'm going to open my blog soon now we have mum nearly sorted. We can compare scars, because your going to be fine, your going nowhere God told me he isn't ready for you and the Devil is scared of losing his job!!! I'll be checking on you take care.

Robin said...

Just a note to let you know that Jay and I are thinking about you and sending every bit of positive thoughts your way.....

Frum Helen Back said...

I just have to write and tell you that I'm thinking about you. If I win the lottery tomorrow night, I'll be on a flight over the pond and will find your hospital so I can hold your hand.

Sue O. (aka Joannie, SS) said...

While I know it sounds trite and wishful thinking-ish, life goes on, love never stops and prayer works. Agreed on all points-rest, don't worry about anything else but getting well-no one is going anywhere. Take good care, Mel.

slb said...

(((((((mel))))))) you daft cow... now you know that is a term of endearment as you told me it was!

Hang in there sweetie.... the princesses and I are pulling for you and you know we can pull a lot!

Our thoughts are with you and we know you will be up dancing a jig in no time....

I still laugh everytime I think of you harassing that businessman in Madison at the Skate shop. What fun we had with the boys. and my how they have matured....

Take care of yourself dear friend.... luv ya

oh yea, Grandma Jones says Hi.. ( i really dont think she remembers who you are... but she said Hi anyway! :)

:) The Queen and her princesses

Out of the Blue said...

Oh, Marmie, I am so sorry you are having to go through all this. I will be praying for you and keeping you in my thoughts.

Tori_z said...

Hope everything's going well this time. *hugs*

If I'm not around for a bit don't worry about me... I got a call yesterday saying there was a cancelation and the doctor doing my op had an opening so they want me in today. Gotta be at a hospital that's almost an hour away by 8:00 am today and I'm having the op some time today.

LadyStyx said...

Just dropping in to leave a "Hi" and some pretty @>-->--- @>-->---
for when you get out. Thinking of you daily with bestest wishes.

JBelle said...

I heard a rumor that somebody's home...is it true? Missed you.

green libertarian said...

Yeah, I heard that too, JBelle.

(((((Marmite)))))!

MarmiteToasty said...

BLOODY HELL - WHERE DID YOU LOT COME FROM?

IM HOME, CAME HOME FROM HOSPITAL AROUND TEATIME YESTERDAY (FRIDAY).... IM TOTALLY EXHAUSTED, AND DRUGGED UP TO THE EYEBALLS, SO PLEASE EXCUSE ME IF I DONT GET AROUND TO REPLYING OR GETTING TO YOU BLOBS UNTIL HOPEFULLY TOMORROW....

JUST TO SAY, IM HOME WITH BOTH FEET ON THE GROUND FOR THE TIME BEING.... ITS BEEN A VERY VERY HARD DIFFICULT 5 DAYS..... I TOLD MATIES NOT TO VISIT...I HAD MUCH THINKING TO DO.. SO THAT ALSO HAS BEEN HARD...

ANYWAYS, FANKS FOR THE COMMENTS AND FOR THE EMAILS AND THE PHONE CALLS...... where would I be without ya...(((((Toadies - France))))).... ok, tears now.... til tomorrow OXO

JBelle said...

I had a lovely, lovely visit with a very dear friend of mine this morning. I'm afraid she's come upon a patch of really bad luck; it's just a shame, too, because she doesn't deserve one minute of it all. She is a magnificent person and a marvelous spirit of joy and laughter for all her many friends and the dozens and dozens and dozens of people who care about her. It's really hard because she has to be really, really tough at this time--not that she hasn't been tough her whole life. But now she's got to kick the sh*t out of the stairs, every hour, because she has to fight for survival and she's all by herself. Except her friends, which she has by the thousands. It's ironic for a person who has more fans that David Beckham to be alone. But somehow she is. Except for the legions of people, far and wide, who care about her. Really care about her. So my love to you and my prayer is for your fight; who knows what kingdom lies beyond this mountain? And if you can count the stars in the sky tonight, that's how much you are loved and those are all your friends, bright in the sky even if a long way away.

Intense Guy said...

Welcome home MT - so many thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep the chin up.

~:*:*:Pixie:*:*:~ said...

Welcome home, Angel.

<3

Robin said...

Welcome home! Glad you're in one piece......

MarmiteToasty said...

Ok...... Tiz 11.15am Sunday Morning here, overcast typical British summer weather with showers forecast.... I tried to have a proper lie-in this morning, but it just wasnt appening lol...

I have just read through the comments.... cripes.... I honestly didnt think there would be any on this post.... you humble me...

-(((Wolfie)))~ fanks you..... Ive been trying to heal from day one lol but its sods law with me....someone looks down on me and says...'lets pile on more shit for her to handle' but at least it means someone else is being given a break :)....xxxxx

-(((soul pumpkin)))~ ok ok so I was in for 5 days lol.... but thats me, always a few days to behind.....peach and love to you to you dear blokie....xxxxx

~((((ciara anyones for a sniff of a consultants boxers))))~ ya wanna be one of me cor blimey penpals :) - I will say, Im a bad one lol.... just as I am with me emails.... and hey, I was speaking to 'Sir' last week..... oh how I LOVE him still.....xxxxx

~(((France)))~ It was so lovely to talk to you on the phone, so very lovely.... ((((for your brother)))).....xxxxx

~(((pixie)))~ I dont know anyone called 'addy' :)....xxxxx

~(((Susan)))~ You my dear special friend are most welcome, sorry the flowers came when you was away :( I bet they was all shrivelled up dead when you got home LOL.... but the thought was there... much love to you dear Susan....xxxxxxx

~(((mei del)))~ cripes that hug was so huge I could feel it from here....fanks you....xxxxx

~(((maggie may)))~ well I dont feel brave, I feel worn out lol... fanks you.... and trekking is what I need to get back to...xxxxx

~(((crispy)))~ so far so good....whats another 5 days of pain after all this time... :)...xxxxx

~(((wanderer, me little northern friend)))~ LOL@your poo words.... Hey, I have to look after me, cos I aint got no one else to... fanks you....xxxxx

~(((LIR)))~ Dam and bugger about your mum.... wish I had known she was going in, I would of kept me eyes open for the intake on Friday Morning, wondering if she was that sweet little old lady that I was speaking to cos she was well stressed out and I was trying to calm her down.... I should of just bitch-slapped her but I thought I would be nice LOL....xxxxx

~(((((((ol lady))))))~ my dear friend, sorry Ive neglected you of late, you know its not intentional :(..... tiz ok... I know you dont fly well without a firework up ya bum lol.... much love...xxxxx

~(((((((((((((((JBelle)))))))))))~ LOL@fiddle dee dee.... yeah one day at a time, except thats what Ive done all me life, I now need a focus for a future before its all to late....love you.....xxxxxx

~((((Phil)))))~ oh my, and how I would of loved to sit and listen to your wonderful kids read to me.... do you know that one me me nephews (whom I aint seen for nigh on 18 years) middle name is Garfield LMFAO.... not sure the cat was around when he was named that thou lol....fanks you for your wishes.... if I dont persevere, what is the alternative?....xxxxx

~((((ladystyx))))~ oh the cyber flower is just beautiful :).... I do think all what has happened is for a reason..... so much has happened in mind body soul and spirit this past year.... it has to be for a reason......xxxxx

~(((charles))))~ well, scared has been me middle name of late, which is scarey in itself COS usually I aint scared of much, it must be where I opened my heart and soul instead of keeping me 'well ard head' on me shoulders.... and hey, fanks you for keep coming back here....xxxxx

~(((jen)))~ God doesnt bless me, he knows Im just to much of a challenge even for him....xxxxx

~(((teabag))))~ Im sick to death of resting.... time to put me stubborn side back in force lol....xxxxx

~(((((((((((Toriz)))))))))))~ Im so gonna come and visit you and ya mam and Kelly and we will climb those mountains in Wales together ((((Toriz))))) you are in my thoughts... all my shit pales into nothingness compared with what you are going through.. and your op.... know you are loved and thought about every day... and even in hospital you was there, whirling around me head with healing throughts for you..... love ya girl....xxxxxx

~((((buffalo))))~ oh my, please can I take the hug, oh how I so wish I had someones strong arms just to hug me right now.... they should be given on the National Health Service....love you matie....xxxxxx

~((((((((ake)))))))~ was it your Reiki that was making that old bag next to me snore all night? :).... love ya...xxxxxxx

~(((lisa))))~ visions of squashed tomatoes and blackberrys coming through the post and Brian me postman just shaking his head LOL....love ya to.....xxxxxxx

~(((Helen))))~ LOL@Super Bummer Mel, that sounds like some super hero thats gone wrong lol....wearing me blue hospital blankie that was this times sovenior around me shoulders and being a super hero ;).....xxxxx

~(((intense guy)))~ oh they was right on the pain lol..... the first few days was worse then the original knee replacment.... fank the heavens for drugs.....much love xxxxxx

~((((((jolie)))))))~ my dear sweet special friend.... Im sitting here and I keep looking across to me dresser where the little glass chickens you sent are perched pride of place and Im smiling.... so smiling, know they are from you, and do you know, they almost EXACTLY match Cedric, Janet and Mabel.... ok tears now....all this has got to be for a reason.... it has to be for a reason..... love you girl.....xxxxxxxxx

~(((((kati)))))~ Im sending me surgeon steady hands and hope his nervious tick dont start up with the knife in his hand LOL..... much love.....xxxxxx

~(((((mei del))))~ fanks you.... I dont know why you stick around, Im such a bad blobber......xxxxx

~((((((((((((((((Scottie))))))))))))~ oh my, oh my, its you.... oh how I have missed and worried about you, dont you think I have enough to sort out without worrying about you and McTavish...... oh and this unwell is just a hiccup compared with the last 3 months LOL.... I'll leave a bucket of water and a bale of hay out the back for ya horse, the back door is always open, just come in :), bring a haggis LOL.......xxxxxxxxx

~((((((((jackie)))))))~ welcome, whomever ya are..... nah, he says Im just to much to handle LOL.... but, would love just once in life before I die, for someone to be strong for me.... and share the load at times...... xxxxx

~((((ToriZ)))))~ you are in me thoughts each and every day.... always....xxxxx

~(((((guilty)))))~ fanks you.... yeah I could ask for a community hunk nurse to come and give me a bed bath LOL... xxxxx

~((((jeanneH))))~ yeah lets hope the tricks means he has magic powers.... or does it mean he is a gambling man, cos I wouldnt be putting no betting stakes on me at the moment lol.....xxxxx

~(((jeannieS))))~ your hand feels so good.... KNICKERS OFF lol...... why does everyone use the word stubborn around me LOL.....xxxxxx

~((((bay views))))~ for everyones moans about our national health service, I meself cant fault the care and support that I have received... just think how much all this would of cost in the States.... plus all that is before me with 3 times a week at the hospital still to come for months.... oh, if me knight came, then his armour would be off in seconds LOL..... as would his chain mail undies LOL.....xxxxx

~(((((hammer)))))~ hey you..... fanks matie.....xxxxxx

~((((idaho escapee))))~ I do have a very high pain threashold and that sometimes is not always good, cos by the time I moan about the pain its usually way off the scale for most people and often more damage is done... and your offer of words I take with love... fanks....xxxxxxxx

~((((((((((Coral))))))))~ me dear South African matie.... I came home Friday teatime ( teatime means tea and crumpet time lol) about 5ish....peace to you to dear friend......xxxxxxx

~(((((((casdok))))))~ did your mother never tell ya, ya eyes will stay stuck like that if you cross them :).....xxxxxx

~((((((Stickman))))))~ fanks you for your love and support.....just need to get this all over so I can restart a life....xxxxxxx

~(((((((((((((((((Queenie))))))))))))))~ oh how I have missed you so very much.... Ive worried about you when your blob was shut..... oh this, its just a hiccup, I had the major shit back in April.... can you imagine if we was in hospital together.. (go back and read me hospital tales LOL) we would of been banned for life....... I will keep you in me thoughts for September and hope that all goes smoothly, your northern, I hear HE only picks and tests us Southerners LOL...... hope all is well with your mum..... welcome back you dear friend.....xxxxxxx

~(((((((((Robin and Jay))))))))~ sorry ive neglect ya of late, I feel so bad about it....much much love to you both.... ps.... little moose came to hospital with me :)....xxxxx

~(((((Helen)))))~ LOL@win the lotto....I so need to start doing the lotto... I so need to move to america.... dam, Im so needy of late lol...... fanks you.....xxxxxxx

~((((((((((ss))))))))))- life goes on, no matter what.... no matter how bad a heart is ripped or a soul is trod on or anything..... I know that, Ive always known that.... just sometimes of late, I need reminding thats all.....but we all learn, and this past year, I have learnt so much about meself and me weaknesses, and how vulnerable I had become, so time to harden me heart and soul once more and keep everything once again inside......xxxxxxxx

~((((((((((((((Slb))))))))))))))~ oh my, tears here to see your words.... oh how I have missed our friendship, oh how I have missed you so very much..... and our trip out to Wisconstance is always in my/our hearts as if it was only last month...... we did have such a laff, such bonding of friendships, such a love for each other.... you will always be there in my heart as will Autumn and the girls and of course Granma Jones..... oh how I love you all.... ok tears again......

We did kick arse in that skateshop didnt we LOL....and that pizza boy lmfao...... Sam and Jacob send you all so much love.... so much, you would of loved the young men they are becoming..... you so would.....xxxxxxxxxx

~((((out of the blue))))~ hey, ya must know by now that NUFFIN in my life goes at scheduled LOL.... this time has just been very difficult to deal with though.... fanks you, for your well wishes..... they mean the world to me.....xxxxxx

~(((((((((((ToriZ)))))))))~oh my oh my, I so wish I was there with you.... if only I was well enough to get to Wales.... you know I would be there by your side.....you are in my thoughts, and the tears now rolling down my face are for your bravery...... love ya girl.....xxxxxxxx

~(((ladystyx)))))~ wow another cyber flower :) - Im ok.... this has got to all be for a reason....Im ok....xxxxxx

~((((JBelle and MrGreen)))))~ two of me bestest maties..... I can home teatime on Friday.... know that I love you both dearly and true....xxxxxxxx

~((((JBelle)))))~ oh goodness, I sending your friend that visited you all the love and best wishes in the world, a friend of yours is truely a friend of mine.....

It was so very lovely to talk to you on the phone....... through the tears there were smiles and laughter...... fanks you.... know you are so very dearly loved.... and how knows who and what is beyond those mountains.... lets hope I find out before I have nuffin left to give..... Ive given so much this past year, and forgot to hold out a hand to be given.....love you JBelle))))......xxxxxxxxx

~(((intense guy))))~ Im keeping all me chins up ;).... fanks you......xxxxxx

~(((((((pixie))))))))~ oh how I love you....xxxxxx

~((((robin)))))~ yeah so am I, cos I aint good at hopping..... lets see what the next 4 weeks bring.... lets just see......xxxxxx

jolie-jordan said...

Hi sweet girl,

Glad to hear you are home and on both feet. Did your doctor say all went well? Just take it nice and slow with the recovery. Rest, eat well and get some sunshine out in your garden.

I say pet the cats and the chicks...hug those lads and take the rest of it one day at a time. Problems don't seem so big for me if I just look at getting through this day.

I'm thinking fond thoughts of you and sending get well wishes too.

When all else fails have a chocolate bar...or send someone out to bring you back one of those huge good looking scones to have with your tea.

Love to you Marmie,
xxxJolie

LadyStyx said...

Im so glad you're home!! YAY! YEW (You're entirely welcome) for the cyberflower. Yes, it's the only was to get through things sometimes...everything having its purpose. Otherwise it'd just drive us insane.

Frum Helen Back said...

I hope you can hear this big "YEA!" all the way over the pond. I'm glad you're home. Hopefully you'll take it easy.

Scots said...

well marmie babes

Glad that you are back in the land of blobs.

I mentioned to McTavish that you were poorly and he TOLD me to make sure I pass on his best wishes and he said "oh how the tables have turned, now it's my turn to ask about her"

Thanks for the water for my hoss and for the open door invitation all I ask is that you have one of the lads to brasso my armour ... tis looking a bit jaded after riding through the typical Brit weather ;)

Best scots wishes and hugs to you for a speedy and full recovery ... haggis is on the way LOL

xxxx

Kati said...

(((((HUGS))))) Glad to see you're home from the hospital Toasty!!! I hope your recovery is going MUCH better this time, and that your Dr. got all the infection and whatever-else needed to be gotten or done during surgery. Much love and many prayers coming your way.

JeanneH said...

Well, Mel, I'm SO glad you're home now...you got home a lot quicker than the doctor originally predicted, didn't you? As usual, do rest up, and take care of yourself...let those big boys do for their mother!! You're ever in my prayers!! I hope the healing is quick this time, girl!! Love you, Jeanne in Idaho xoxoxo

Jen said...

Marmie, God loves a good challenge! :)

Tori_z said...

Glad you're home. Hope recovery is going better this time. Was thinking of you while I was in hospital too. *hugs* :)

Thanks for all the hugs and thoughts and such. I know you'd have been there if you could have been. *hugs* :)

I did get to come home after just one night. Wasn't feeling up to doing anything until today though.

Within Without said...

Well, Mel, thinkin' bout you and feelin' for you. It's all we can do, offer our strength and support.

Be well. You're strong and vibrant and full of life and piss n' vinegar.

Take a swig, spit it out and everything will turn out fine.

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((jolie))))~ stuffing more white chocolate into me mouth cos jolie says its ok to do so lol....... xxxxxx

~(((ladystyx)))~yep, Im just trying to suss out what the purpose is for lol....xxxxx

~(((helen)))~ wow girl, you aint arf got a bit of a gob on ya LMFAO.....xxxxx

~(((((((((((((((Scottie))))))))))))~ oh where was ya back in April when I had major surgery? aye? aye? when I needed ya hand to hold lmfao...... oh, ya was probably fiddling with ya sporan :) - hugs to McTavish..... my lads LOVE haggis...... LOVE IT....with mashed spuds and steamed veggies...... xxxxxxxx

~((((((kati))))~ fanks you :)....xxxxx

~((((JeanneH))))~ Im fed up with resting up, so Im playing it my way now lol.....xxxxx

~(((jen)))~ there is a 'challenge' and then there is ME lol......xxxxxx

~(((((ToriZ))))~ its unbelieveable that they let you home after one day...... Im gobsmacked..... love ya girl.....xxxxxx

~((((((within without shake it all about))))~ well, Ive drank a bottle of vinegar, but jebus, dont it arf sting ones landing flaps when ya piss it out ;) lol...... fanks you.....Xxxxx