Sunday 26 July 2009

Blood Bones Guts And Funny Surgeons.... Part III (Oh Hush GoFigure)

Ok........ tiz been a while, I know, but have sorta kept meself to meself of late, just trying to do things right, now thats a first for me lol

Before I show ya the blood and guts post, I'll quickly say whats been going on this past couple of weeks....

I had me consultant a week and a half ago, I had to go to the other hospital in town, what a cock up that was with hospital transport again lol, they had to fork out the cost of a taxi there and back for me cos they cocked up.... suited me just fine fanks very much lol

Anyways, I had 4-5 Xrays, only to discover that the 4 inch break in me femur as yet even after 6 weeks has not knitted together as it should of.... I have been non weighbearing as much as possible over the past 6 weeks, but just sometimes its been impossible..... anyways, me consultant was a little concerned, the break though had not got any bigger it had just not knitted, and the hole where they took the acl/pcl reconstruction screws out was also gapping like a toothless old hag.....

So, MrD me consultant gave me options.....

1. Further surgery to have a plate and little screws placed over the break and gapping hole in me femur.....

2. No weightbearing for a further 6 weeks, but be admitted to hospital to immobilise me leg so the break cant move but have the physios come in to keep the robot knee joint moving so it dont scar over like last years one and stop bending....

3. Start partial weighbearing and work up to full weightbearing under strict physio at the hospital 3-4 times a week, and hope that the way the new knee joint is in place, the weight of the joint is dispersed right across the femur spreading out the force of weight and hope that cos of that, the break in the femur wont continue to split up me femur, and see what happens.....SEE WHAT BLOODY HAPPENS lol......

The first 2 options are not an option for me, as the 14 inch wound scar is now fairly clean and healing nicely and the infection is very minor still, to open me up again and fiddle around, well, nope..... I aint doing that....

The second option aint happening either, I cant not be here for 6 weeks as much as I actually could do with the rest LOL....

So...... after much discussion I/we have plumped for option 3.... I do not know who is more scared and worried, me or nick me physio lol.......if we get this wrong or I fall then Im buggered cos the femur will crack right up to me bum...... so you can imagine how careful I am being, and 4 trips to the hospital physio gym this week have been like a trip to hell LOL.... a week and a bit on and things seem to be going ok.... very painful, but no falls, Im still on crutches but trying to use them mainly for balance.......but Im wicked on them now.... I did nearly come a cropper yesterday though, but the least said about that the better LOL suffice to say I have a graze about 5 inches down the side of me face and the wall in the kitchen is sporting bits of my skin LOL

Im great in meself though, and very positive...... just dam bloody bored LOL.... its ok having time off work when one is normal and with dosh in ones pocket, but Im neither so its a tad frustrating.... hence why Ive been a little quiet, mainly cos after the hospital trips and what with trying to deal with me solicitor, its left me knackered.....

Anyways enough of all that bollocks.... I need to get this last part down on paper as a record of events, so one day me lads might realise some of the horrendous things Ive been through lol......... they refuse to look at the photos, said they dont wanna see, cos it makes them feel sick LOL

So, after a night tossing and turning and getting hardly any sleep, I awoke with the sound of the tea trolley doing its early morning rounds....... no tea for me, today was the day..... please lordie dont let me be like last years operation, please give me a break and let things be good.....

Me consultant did his rounds about 8ish... this is MrC the one that took pity on me and added me to his list lol..... he introduced himself, and shook my hand with the words...'you are quite a celebrity, fanks to nurse Lisa and MrN, after hearing from them both, Im very pleased to have you on my list for today, it will be about teatime, but Im told you havent eaten or drunk properly for days, so Im making an exception, you are allowed to drink water throughout the day, we cant have to dehyradated before we even start, but just water, nuffin else - Ive studied your notes from MrD and realise we face a few problems cos of the acl/pcl reconstruction a few years ago, but you my dear are going to have to put your trust in me and let me do the best I can for you in whatever circumstances that might arise.... any questions Mel'?....

ok, I says, just a couple....I know I will be having the spinal block right? and last year I also had a bit of sedation which was like a nice drunk feeling, so I was awake but not really truely with it right? well this year, I do NOT want any sedation whatsoever, just the spinal, I want to be fully awake cos last year I think it might of been a reaction to the sedation what made me really poorly the first few days after surgery, and thats when things started to go to pot - well he says, its not very pleasant not to have some sedation, you will be fully aware of every word spoken and even though you will not feel any pain you will feel the hammering and drilling and your body moving as we bang and drill etc.... but I NEED to hear whats going on, and I so dont wanna be poorly like last time..... ok, he said, its your shot, but if you feel its all to much then let us know and we will sedate you.... you will be the first that will of only had the spinal, you are crazy LOL......

Anything else, he asks...... yes, can I take me camera into theatre and could one of the theatre staff take photos for me, please........ well he says that also is a first, well, I says, last year MrD let me take the camera and he captured great photos, now you cant let him outdo you can ya? - with that he let out a huge laff LOL...... oh my he says, I can see why MrN and Lisa shout your corner for you, you certainly are not the run of the mill patient LOL....they sure were correct about you - ok he says, its a deal, if MrD can have photos of your op then we to must out do him with better photos lmfao.....

Oh, and one more thing, no Auntie Morris I says, he blanked stared at me and so I had to explain all about Auntie Morris and me Auntie Freda's wee bag LOL.... I dont think many patients talk to these top surgeons like I do LOL.... he just smiled and said, no Auntie Morris then - see you around teatime he said.... and with that he walked away chuckling.....

So I had the rest of the day to worry and read to Violet and get things from the shop for others....I had to keep telling meself that this would not go like last years, that was just unlucky, this is different, things will be ok... they had to be....

A little before teatime the call came up that I was to be got ready and someone would be up to collect me to take me to theatre, all systems were go, and the call said, tell Mel not to forget her camera LMFAO hahahahaha



This is one of the theatre nurses, I cant remember what I said to her but she is finding something wellabit funny LOL...I will admit all through the op, problems and all, we laffed and laffed...... note the time on the clock on the back wall.. 4.20pm just past teatime..... I didnt get back to the ward until a little before 9pm.... cripes, things did get complicated LOL

They wheeled me bed down to theatre where I had to hop over onto the operating table and sit on the edge with me feet on a chair and curl me backbone so that they could insert the spinal.... so there I sat.... with one of the theatre nurses infront of me holding me hands incase I fell off the table LOL.... cold spray they said and then you will feel a little prick.... its been a while I said, since Ive had a little prick...... I NEED to learn to keep me mouth shut LOL.....well I could feel the anthestist running his fingers down my spine, and then a sharp prick and with that me left leg shot out and kicked the nurse who was holding me hands right in the shins LOL........ oh my says the anthestist, thats not quite the right gap LOL..... I asked if he had done this before or if he had just wandered in off the street.... with that he was standing in front of me and said, its not me doing it LOL Im teaching today.... blimey, they had only let a student loose on me spinal column lol..... 3 attempts later and 2 kicks at the nurse and they finally got the spinal in.... I had no control over the leg movement, it was the strangest thing ever, its where the needle had hit part of the spinal cord nerves and it must of been the ones that go to me left leg....



we did laff but my back was like a dot-to-dot of holes lol - I did think to meself..... oh shit, here we go again....

I was asked if I was sure I wanted to be fully awake, I said yep, but if things went wrong I didnt wanna hear them say 'we are losing her' or 'my what a fat arse' LOL.... MrC just stared at me and shook his head smiling lol

Ok, he says from behind the screen, lets start, are you ready Mel..... can you take the screen down so I can see, I says..... nope he says we so aint doing that LOL....ok I says but you have to talk to me and tell me whats going on, I dont wanna hear like on the hospital telly programme in surgery where ya discuss who is shagging who and which doctor is cheating on his wife LOL..... he pops his head over the screen and says, dam, which telly hospital programme do you watch LOL...

Ok Mel just tell me if you feel anything, you shouldnt but let me know ok.. first cut.... I asked him to give me a running commentary lol again he said that would be a first, Im glad I had MrC he was not so straight laced as MrD, and the other top surgeon that was MrC's sidekick was wellabit funny.... There was 8 people in theatre plus 2 students and me..... I didnt realise there would be so many, just thought it would be 4 or 5 people....



This was the first cut, little was I to know they then cut much longer and higher, 14 inches in all.... I think my days of modeling are over lol

Throughout both the surgeons so made me laff, it was not until after I put the photos on me computer that I realised how they were both playing to the camera lol.... see the thumbs up in the above photo LOL to dam funny

ok.... be warned gross photos to follow.....



Now this is just the funniest photo ever, it must be the angle or something cos my knee looks like the size of a bloody head LOL...... you can see how much bigger the opening is in the above photo... its right proper wide cos they are pulling it apart with clamps....

No wonder one is very sore after LOL





Just some of the many instruments used during the operation, and yes thats a drill just like I have in me tool bag in me shed LOL....



See the bits of me femur in the little pot, its a strange thought that they cut the end of ones femur off and chistle it out like a dovetail joint to get the metal knee to sit straight...... and then part of it is shoved up the bonemarrow part of the bone....the thing in the photo is the bit that measures where the dovetail will go lol





This has just gotta be the bestest photo ever, these are two top orthopedic surgeons doing a complicated operation on 'me' LMFAO and they have time to take a bow, you can certainly tell they aint never had a camera in theatre before.... I just so love this photo.... and all the time Im chatting away behind the sheet LOL see, it just goes to prove these top surgeon are really just the same as everyone else lol - see the bowl of me bones lol

I did ask if I could have some of the bones and the screws but I was not allowed cos they were not sterile.... I so wanted to make a necklace out of the bones lol



Yep, they really stand on a little stool and put all their force behind hammering..... this is the part where I heard me consultant say 'oh shit' and whats that suppose to mean I say.... well he says, remember how I told you that cos of the weakness where the screws would be out from the acl reconstruction, and how the bone might sheer off..... well, he said, it didnt...... phew I said.... it didnt sheer off he said but I broke it instead...... oh my I says..... well, lets just call it a lucky break then aye?.... with that he comes around my side of the sheet and just bursts out laffing, saying 'a lucky break lol'.... see to some it would of been devastating, but to me it was the best of the two evils... whats a 4 inch break when it could of been the whole bone sheered off ....





Even though the cut dont look it, it actually measures 14 inches from top to bottom...... see the new metal robot joint in place..... all me bits of femur and tibia are in a little bowl, probably going down to the kitchens to make a stew from LOL



That just left the closing up with staples... 46 altogether, he said it was the most he has ever used but with 14 inches to close up he had no choice.... I will admit the scar is horrendous, the bottom half aint to bad but the top half I think he must of done bloody blanket stitch on it lol.... but I say, scars are the roadmaps of ones life, and there aint much I can do about them.... and its not like anyone will ever see them but me.... no one would want me now anyways LOL



They had to be so very careful putting me back across onto my ward bed, cos of the broken femur they made sure things were smooth by having so many people to help LOL...... if you could see me face, I was rolling me eyes lol mainly cos I couldnt see what all the fuss was about cos I was painfree still and numb from me bum down.....



This was the portable Xray machine they had to send down to theatre to Xray the break in me femur before they would move me from recovery back to the ward.....



This is Francis on the right and another chap in recovery, Francis was beaming when he saw me, he remembered me from last year LOL.... they are trying to put me leg in a PMM passive movement machine, they dont usually use one until a few days after a knee op, but cos of all the problems with lack of bend last year, they put me on it straight away, not 10 minutes out of surgery LOL....Jebus just look at me huge cankles lol - see all the blood in the tubes, I told ya I was a bit of a bleeder..... they collected my blood in a bag and when I needed a blood transfusion the following day, they just used my own blood.... talk about recycling lol....



Proof I was alive and kicking LOL no flatlining for me....



That just left Francis to put the end of me bed back on before they whisked me off back to me ward....... you can see me little name tag on the bedend LOL.... see his beaming face.... we giggled like 2 school kids for the whole hour I was in recovery LOL...

They took me back to me ward a little before 9pm.... I know it was that time cos just as they got me settled in and me morphine drip thingy inplace, The Apprentice programme came on the little telly high up on the wall.....

Do you know it was the strangest of things..... last year when I came back to the ward I was so very very poorly.... for 3 days, really out of it...... but this year, it was as if I had just popped out somewhere fore a coffee and a cake..... I was not drowsy or sick or light headed or in pain.... it was just so odd...... even the ward sister and the ward doctor couldnt believe how 'normal' I was LOL..... everyone did hush though so I could watch the programme I had kept on about all day LOL you see, I had watched this programme for weeks and those that know The Apprentice will know how it grabs ya by the short and curlies and I was so worried I was gonna miss it LOL and it being the last but on in the series LOL..... so I sat and watched the telly straight from recovery, they had fixed me up with me morphine drip....



One is in control of ones own morphine, its impossible to overdose though lol cos ya can only get a blast every 6 minutes...... it was funny to watch in the coming days as others bashed their machines and clicked the buttons lol hoping they could get more....

As the telly programme finished around 10pm..... me leg had been in the PMM since coming out of surgery, it was to stay on all night... what it does is automatically bends ya leg for you as it sits cradled in the machine.... what with that and the pumps on me feet which keep the circulation going to save blood clots, I was wondering how the hell I would sleep...... but do you know what, within 5 minutes of The Apprentice programme on the telly finishing, I was out for the count.... I think my body had just given up the ghost, it had been a long stressful hard day with many complications..... so when the nurse went down to the kitchens to find me some sarnies to munch on, cos I had not eaten now for 5 days LOL.... well, when she came back with them.... I was away with the fairys.... dead to the world........ and thats how I was until 7am the following morning, I was still dead to the world and they had to wake me up....... bloody hell...... how different from last year....

Lets just see what was to be forthcoming in the days ahead......

ok.... way way to much twaddle for anyone to read.... but, its just me diary for me lads, so I aint bovvered if anyone read it or not.......but if ya did, I hope the photos were not to gross, I actually have another 30 or so and it was hard to choose which one to put on here......

Tiz a little past 10.30pm now, and I have hospital transport picking me up at just gone 8am tomorrow, so I should think about bed I suppose..... just wish I had a morphine drip now LOL.....

x

86 comments:

Scots said...

OMG I am so sorry to have missed all of this .... HUGE huggles from me and McTavish! I truly hope you aint feeling too bad.

McTavish had his leg chopped off 3 weeks ago - a bit traumatic but he now has no pain at all and is awaiting his "new" leg to be made and fitted. He's got another 4 - 5 weeks of hospital but should be good after that.

Take care and much luv n hugs coming your way xxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((((((((Scottie)))))))))~ tiz really you.... when I was up on me feet again I was gonna drive up to Scotland and hunt you and McTavish out.....

So sorry about darling McTavish, dam and bugger, I was hoping against all hope that wouldnt happen....... please give him all my love and hugs... and take a couple for yourself..... and hey, tell McTavish he can enter the 3 legged race with me in the highland games :) him with his one and me with me two LOL.....

Im sooooooo missed you Scottie.... hope your well.... know you are loved....xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

ps ((Scottie))) did McTavish get to keep his chop off leg as a sovenier? or did he slow cook it for sunday lunch, us English know how cheapskate you scots are :)

x

softinthehead said...

Mel glad to hear the op went OK and you are feeling much more positive. I will keep my fingers crossed that things continue that way - take it easy :)

LadyStyx said...

No worries on the grossness of the pix. Those of us in the squeamish lot can just access the entry through the comments section and skip the pictures entirely. Thanks for the heads up though.

The way you convey a story is freakin priceless. You even had my hubby laughing in parts. I'm so glad that the surgery went better than last year.

Go Figure said...

MT: Did you say morphine? HA! I am on my way over asap! Go easy on that stuff, I want some left when I get there. HA! Nice gam!

Intense Guy said...

I'm sorry McTavish lost his leg. I hope he has a speedy recovery.

{{{{{{{{{{ Melody }}}}}}}}}}

To be honest, I could barely bring myself to look at the leg operation pictures but I did. I think Sam is going to be in for a treat when you make it into a screensaver or Christmas card picture for him.

I really, really hope "Option 3" works out. You keep drinking that milk for Calcium and just ignore the fact you started turning white and black and moo'ing in the early afternoons. Get well soonest.

Deanna said...

I kept having to come back to this post. Holy toledo! I was glad to see another post from you. The photos are actually pretty awesome. Who would of thought what all they do. It sure explains the long recovery.

Although not perfect, Option 3 does sound like the best option. Keep doing everything you are supposed to... huge hugs dear woman!

Deanna

Charles Gramlich said...

Egads, milady. You should be featured on one of those surgery shows. I'm glad you came through it OK but man, I hope for your quick recovery.

Betty said...

First let me say, Eeeeeeeeewwwwww. I sure am glad I didn't read this over breakfast, or breakfast would be over - all over everything. lol I hope everything goes well now and you heal like you're supposed to.

His Girl Friday said...

interesting stuff there, doll :)

actually, really, a bit morbid I know, but then I sorta do this for a livin' :)

Scots,
he's alive and kickin' too, well, gosh darn....

ChrisB said...

You are such a hoot, I read every last word and having been a nurse I find the pictures interesting (call me a ghoul!). Only you could want to make a necklace out of your bones LOL.
I really hope the physio goes well and the transport manages to turn up on time. Take care x

buffalodick said...

Paging Dr. Peter Cushing, and Dr. Christopher Lee... Those photos of the incision ... Crap! That had to hurt... The stitches must be pretty extensive too! Couple of bolts in your neck, and Bride of Frankenstein is back! Just kiddin' and tring to cheer you up in my usually bad manner... Heal up, and be well..

Carla said...

I think it's a fine idea that you're keeping a blog on this for your boys.

What I can't believe is that you had an epidural for this procedure instead of being knocked out! I get a little woozy just having a crown put on my tooth and all that digging around in my mouth. Hearing them grind and break and buzz on you leg......you are one brave woman.
Best of luck with option 3!

Toriz said...

It's posts like this when I'm actually glad I can't see the photos. LOL!

Glad you didn't end up missing your show because of the surgery. LOL! You're as bad as me... Although, it wasn't a show I was worried about missing, it was the apple and rhubarb crumble they were having for pudding at dinner time. ;)

Jen said...

What a story! The epidural was the worst part for me when I had the kids. I think it all depends on the anesthesioligist, though. It hurt like heck with Josh and Adam, but I barely felt it with Julianna. I don't know if I would have been able to allow a student to do it, though. Especially after a few tries.

I'm glad you're in good spirits. That will help with the healing, I'm sure.

JBelle said...

whooo-wheee! (shaking head.) flexing both knees.

basicliving@backtobasicliving.com said...

Oh, Lordy. I'm not usually squeamish, but those pictures are amazingly .... well .... graphic! I can not believe you opted to be awake for all that. I would have passed out when they screwed up putting the epidural in. The FIRST time! Makes my hiney tingle just THINKING about it.

Well, you've been through hell with those legs of yours - but you have certainly brightened the days of the many surgeons and nurses you've had. I snorted out loud at the "little prick" comment.

Take care of yourself, Marmy. So good to hear you in good spirits!

Lee Harris said...

Yikes.
Two thoughts: Because of you the surgeons may have to reconsider "twilighting" future patients -- your recovery without tranquilizers is noteworthy.
And, I got all weepy taking my cat to the vet today...(injured paw)... Your strength is inspiring.

AliceKay said...

I'm so glad you're here posting again. I've been checking every now and then for a new update to see how you're feeling.

The pictures were hard for me to look at. (i never thought of what Styxie suggested...it was a good idea...it's too late for me, but a good idea...LOL) You've been thru a lot. I would never be able to go thru this without being sedated. Wow!

I hope Option #3 works out for you and you can get back to doing what you need to be doing soon enough. *hugs*

JeanneH said...

Sweet, sweet Mel! My goodness. I did read clear to the bottom - I always do...but some of the pictures I skimmed over quickly .. eeuuww. I have to say I admire you SO much for your strength and wit during these hard years of surgeries and therapy and rehab. My goodness. And someday, when your boys are ALL grown up, they may even look here and see what it was all about. Much love to you and my prayers for complete recovery too! Love, Jeanne in Idaho xoxoxo

Lisa said...

Oh mel, you ain't never been "normal" so I don't think its fair to expect the hospital to make you so!!

As for the sedation, I couldn't agree more! I am so sick after it, that is much worse than whatever they sedated me for! If I can do surgery with only spinal, I'm there!

el chupacabra said...

Oh marmsie- I have no words. Haven't you been through enough already?!

Unknown said...

i will freely admit you would have to knock my ass out for a month to go through this shite...i've come to the conclusion that women are definitely the stronger, more courageous gender...

love ya, Mel

Mickle in NZ said...

Dearest Mel,

I have been fine with the excellent photography of your theatre team, and the photos' contents.

is a right bugger about the broken femur. Sending strong healing thoughts to that thigh bone. And more strong thoughts to your sons (yep, you know where I coming from - get up off your arses lads, and do something useful and practical for your Mum).

Sedation vs morphine - my experiences the exact opposite. I bound about after sedation (they should give a "reversal drug" - it works super well for me).

Loathe, loathe morphine. My hospital notes after having most of my large intestine removed (as you do, lol) included my reluctance to use the morphine pump.

Wish I was over there to look after you. Tend to the chooks, and tell those older sons of yours.............

maybe is best I'm not there telling them, but so wish i was closer to help you despite your stroppy protests!!

Isn't it so, so hard to ask for help - I'm appalling at it!

Love and caring huggles, Michelle/Mickle and a snoring Zebbycat, xoxoxoxox

Unknown said...

I LOVE the pictures!!! And the doctor's crack me up. Thumb's up, sneaking a look at the camera, bowing, how freaking cute is that!

And I didn't think your knee looked like a head, I was thinking it looked like a pregnant belly, right before the perform a c-section! LOL

And isn't it amazing how they can do all that with hardly any blood coming out??

I'm so sorry the bone broke and you have to go through all this crap again. It's so unfair. I wish you had a speedy recovery and everything was back to normal in a flash!

I bet those doctor's and nurses just love you and they probably talk of you often and wish ALL their patients were like you!

Cindy said...

No matter what it is that you do, you can sure be trusted to do it up grandly! I'm glad those surgeons were willing to let you have it done your way- with the camera and being awake. And I'm glad they were such good sports about it. I expect to see you on one of those reality medical shows one of these days! I'll be sitting here in Farmersville, watching my tv and there you'll be- I'm sure there won't be any problem knowing it's you! Who else would want to be wide awake and having pictures taken?
I'm so glad you are not having to go through all that over-meds stuff like you did last year. And I'm so glad, too, that you seem to be your normal wacky self again. You, lady, are one incredibly inspiring woman.

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((softinthehead)))~ things everyday are changing.... so now I have all the summer school holidays off.... mostly unpaid though... oh well lol..... and then I HAVE to be up and able to work by beginning September when the schools go back.... I cant live on me rainy day savings for ever... I might have to start selling off body parts lol....xxxxxxxxx

~((((LadyStyx))))~ nuffin grosses me out anymore, thats what living with 4 sons does for ya lol....

I can only type whats in me head, hence the shit grammar and spelling lmfao.... completely different from last years, different problems but why did I think it would be problem free when its to do with me lol....xxxxxx

~((((((((((GoFigure)))))))~ I'll tell ya when the spinal dried up, morphine was my lover LOL.... Im still on fairly high dozes of painkillers BUT.... I bite through the pain and just take them an hour or so before physio, and before bed.... Im well ard I am LOL....LMFAO@nice gam....does that mean 'gammy leg' :)... todays physio went wonderful, I nearly gave Nick a heart attack though lol but one has to keep him on his toes... xxxxxxxx

~(((((((Iggy))))~ fanks for the McTavish thoughts.... he is Scotties dear scottish papa... and I named him McTavish LMFAO...

Glad you looked at the photos, I tried to pick out the most non gross ones LOL.... Im so gonna do that with Sam lmfao.. if I drink anymore milk someone will pull me boobs thinking they are udders LOL....xxxxxxxx

~(((((Deanna)))))))~ great photos aye :) - the little dark skinned surgeon came down onto the ward and gave me his email and begged me to email him the photos lol..... said he had never had photos of him during surgery lmfao - maybe I should sue him first for breaking me leg and loss of earnings lol....

Option 3 is hard cos Im gagging to just be 'going for it' now... I did walk across the kitchen without the use of crutches this morning LOL...xxxxxxxx

~(((((Charles))))))))~ this is twice in a year that Ive had to go through this.... time is a healer right lol..... xxxxxxxx

~((((Betty)))))~ lol@Eeewwww... you could of dripped ya egg in the blood LOL, I think healing is going extremely well when I compare to last years nonsense, and thats with the added bonus of a broken femur lol.....xxxxxxx

~(((((((((HisGirlFriday))))))))~ I forgot you was a nurse :), you should ask to go into theatre now you know how its done and take my photos at learning aids LOL....

Aint it loverly to see Scottie, if I was 10 years younger Id take him to Gretna Green and hitch him up, with or without his permission lol....xxxxxxxx

~(((((Crispy))))))))~ I remember you saying you was a nurse :), so to you the photos are old hat LOL....

I SOoooooo wanted me bones and screws back but no amount of begging would let that happen, I called me surgeon a pussy LOL....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((((((Buff)))))))))))))~ yep it hurt after LOL....not so much now of course, a different hurt from last years though.... had 26 internal stitches and 46 external staples.... he said it was the longest wound.... and me physio and anyone that sees it take a sharp intake of breathe :( - no one will love or want me now with all those scars LOL....... your daft humour makes me smile :)..xxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((CeeCee)))~ its like a diary thing LOL

It wasnt a epidural as such, it was just an a single injection...... no top up, so they was sweating it a bit when the op was taking so long incase it began to wear off LOL..... it was a strange feeling knowing the drilling and hammering was on me lol....xxxxxxx

~(((((ToriZ))))))~ dont make me describe the photos LOL..... lmfao@rhubarb crumble time....xxxxxx

~((((Jen))))~ I should write a book right? lol..... yeah Im in good spirits most days, I have the odd down day though but thats allowed I think lol....xxxxxxx

~(((((((((JBelle))))))))~ shaking me head with you lol but not flexing me knees as much LOL....

I have the whole of the summer off, I wish I could come over and visit... but not much fun on crutches right? lol......xxxxxx

~(((((basicliving)))))~ aint they great, I think better then last years photos lol.... the spinal was funny cos I had no control over my kicking left leg lmfao.....

yep been through hell so it can only get better :).......xxxxxx

~((((((Lee Harris)))))))~ hope your cat is okay :( xxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((Alice)))))~ the photos are great ya pussy LMFAO.....

Option 3 so far seems to be working, but Im getting a bit to cocky with it lol....xxxxxxx

~((((JeanneH))))~ please there is nuffin to admire, Im a bit of a sissy really lol you just dont hear me whining days LOL...... love you go girl.....xxxxxxx

~((((Lisa))))~ Im so far from normal Im changing me name to Abby LOL.....xxxxxxxx

~((((((((((((Chupa)))))))))))))~ well obviously I aint been punished enough so they just dish out more LOL but Im well ard, I'll come out the other side all the better for it :) - 2 major ops in a year is some going I suppose lol.....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((((Soul))))))))))))~ well you should of come over to hold me hand LOL Im not always strong, I was scared and alone and very frightened...... but each day things are improving..... soon I will be running, no more football though, but most other things will be within my grasp right?......

know you are loved to ......xxxxxx

~((((Mickle))))~ yep bugger and dammit lol.... me lads are doing okay here, I only have to ask..... but I glad to get back to sorta of cooking and getting back to my role LOL, in a crimple sorta way lmfao......

I would of loved someone here for a little while, I would cry myself to sleep so many nights feeling alone and scared...... but, I had to kick meself in the arse and just get on with it....xxxxx

~(((((((((((Bina))))))))))~ fanks for the cards matie :) - yep them surgeons were well funny LOL....... there is not much bloody cos they tied strings around ya legs like a tonique (sp) which stops the blood supply and leaves ya legs numb and one side of my knee is still completely numb with no feeling which is strange, but it might come back, but that is why it dont bleed much..... but ya also get a bit of nerve damage..... but it will make a great party trick when I get someone to put a branding iron on me knee and I wont flinch LOL.... yeah if it was not for the broken femur things would of been going along just fine...... I dont know about love me, glad to get rid of me no doubt lol.........xxxxxxx

~((((Cindy))))~ yep, trust me to always cock things up LOl the story of me life as you can see by past twaddle posts lol

Yep I was cross when they wouldnt let me have a cuppa tea though LOL......LOL@farmersville.... I do get really down days but thats to be expected..... but on the whole Im fine and in good spirits...... what will be will be......there are just some things out of my control so I have to just go with the flow of the river.....

me, I couldnt inspire a one legged fly LOL........xxxxxxxxxx

Sorrow said...

OMG
I am woozie

I am light headed...
I feel like i am going to be sick
Ugh
Ugh

You are insane.
Lovable
but completely off your rocker.
I didn't read anyones comments,
just gagged my way thru this post.
And I am with you r BOYS 100% !
never looking at those photo's again is a GREAT plan.
ugh
can I get the version with out the show and tell?
ugh.
((((MEL)))))
mend baby mend.

Maggie May said...

You know Mel...... you are just about the most brave lady that I have ever come across. There were parts of that that I had to skip through & I didn't think I was squeamish..... only with eyes!!!!!!
I really hope that you are well on the way to recovery by now & will be leaping about all over the place before too long.
You deserve a medal, you really do.
I think the hospital staff will go a long time before they get such a chirpy, brave person with such a good sense of humour again.

Karla said...

Hopefully they finally got it right and it will heal for you correctly this time. Hope you recover quickly...

Helena said...

Toasty, you are a marvel to modern women! This journey should have been televised, as it would have been a very positive approach to suffering - which you have faced with dignity as well as humour.

I know it's kinda weird to say but the pictures were fabulous!

Elizabeth said...

So YOU may not have been "drowsy or sick or light headed" but I AM after reading this! To be fair, you did issue a warning.
Awfully glad to hear that things went about as well as they possibly could have...considering it was you and all...
A friend of mine just had her kneecap broken in 9 pieces. I won't be sending her over here, awesome tho you may be!

Pauline said...

You are one helluva brave lady. I had to peek at the photos through my fingers and couldn't resist saying "ouch" over and over. Rest well, recover soon!

Deb said...

OMG ~ I have to be honest and tell you I did have my hand over my eyes when it was picture time but I read all of the words. Your humor through such a time leaves me in total awe of you! You are one tough, strong woman! I am wishing you a speedy, healthy recovery ~ and keep on smiling! xo

Pamela said...

amazing!
I didn't even get queasy looking at the photos. Almost looked like wax.

So how are you feeling now -- I know I was chastising you for not taking better care and getting some help

It is only because I care and worry.
(If I could take worrying in for a living I would be rich)

Jeanie said...

OMG! This was almost way too much information. I was white knuckled by the time I got to the photos, and then when we hit the "big head" photo, and you said this is the funniest picture ever, I burst out into hysterical laughing, uncontrollable hoo haws, and tears springing down my cheeks. I was caught in this terrible horrible awful cross between OMG that is absolutely gross to OMG I'm going to split my gut, just like that picture.

I'm glad you are home now and able to look back. You are my hero!

Jackie said...

I am speechless!!! Mel, Mel, Mel!! and here I've been whining and whimpering over some things that I've thought were the end of me! Lord forgive!

Girl, I love you! You've certainly put things in perspective for me.

Can't wait until the "next reading"...

Mango's Madness said...

You poor thing, I am so sorry that you have to go thru this bull. My uncle had to have both hips done at the same time! You are my hero for being able to do it! By the way you visit this crazy old mans blog any time you would like. Best wishes from an old Texan.

Flowerpot said...

blimey Marmie you really have been through it all havent you. Had to skip the gorey bits - big big hugsxxx

Toriz said...

Well, if you do describe the photos, make sure it's not a day when I'm checking blogs while eating my lunch, because if I throw up on my laptop I'm sending you the bill for a new one. ;)


Seriously though... I'm happy not knowing details of these photos. What you said in your text is plenty, thanks!

Go Figure said...

MT: Next time you go see the doctor--I am assuming that in Britain (Great-HA!) they take your blood pressure--stick a wallet or wadded up sock or whatever in the arm pit of the arm that they take the pressure on...then squeeze down on the wallet/sock whatever with your upper arm/shoulder as they start taking your pressure...I am assuming that you have blood...if you do it correctly...it will literally cut off all blood flow to your arm and it will cause all sorts of concern...HA!

buffalodick said...

Hope things are progressing in a good direction.. If you have to lie to me, you won't be the first woman... Be well. That was an order.

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((Sorrow))))))~ I only posted the least gross photos so dont be a pussy LOL....... and Im not insane, well, I aint been officially certified ;) yet..xxxxxxx

~((((((MaggieMay)))))~ I was so very scared after what happened last year, and then having to face this again all on me own...... so Im only brave in respect of trying to have the guts to enter something that I knew might take me down....

But even though they broke me femur this time (bastards) Ive mostly kept me humour, cos the rest of it their aint been a dam thing I could do about it.....xxxxxxxx

~(((Karla))))~ they think hopefully long term it will be a far better outcome then last years one, which we are still working on LOL...xxxxxx

~((((Lena)))))~ nah Im not, Im just someone totally on me own just trying to get through piles of surgery all in just one year LOL.... the photos are great aye? lol...xxxxxxx

~((((Elizabeth)))))))~ LMFAO@you.... come on, a bit of bloody and guts are just fine and dandy LOL.... Im fine with it all....

and your right, considering it was me, things went as well as could be expected...... cripes at your matie........ they almost removed my kneecap but decided there was enough muscles attached to see if they could keep it on LOL.... it would of made a loverly little money change dish lol....xxxxxxx

~(((Pauline))))~ nah not brave not in comparison to many..... I do feel Im getting better each day...xxxxx

~(((((Deb))))~ swapping the word tough for mentally insane LOL...xxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((Pamela))))~ they are a little waxy looking thats cos they cover all the skin with a sort of plastic skin that sticks like clingfilm...

Well, over the past few days Im feeling real good, had a terrible weekend last week, but touch wood, Im feeling right proper ontop today, that might change tomorrow though lol maybe the sunshine helped today after 2 weeks of rain...

:) fanks for caring and worrying...xxxxxxxx

~(((((JeanieS)))))~ aint it just the funniest, I tried bending me knee today to see if I could get the same affect, but I just cant lol, it looks HUGE in that photo, all I can think is it must be the lights and the angle LOL.....

oh fanks for getting so much laughter out of me pain LMFAO....xxxxxxx

~((((((((Jackie))))))~ now you stop it, you dont whine and whimper and everyone faces different challenges in life, I have 2 very special blob friends facing such major challenges, my dear friend Susan is fighting esosphogus (sp) cancer, and I only learnt a few days ago that me matie Chris (within without shake it all about) has just had a major stroke, this big strong funny blob friend, so they both face such uphill struggles compared to my little problems..... so, dont you down yourself girl..... and know you are loved...xxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

~(((((Mango)))))~ tiz ok, Im wellabit ard this time, and seeing as I went through it all just one year ago, it just feels like a continuation lol they will rebuild me though of that Im sure :).... and I will visit you, you crazy old man LMFAO......xxxxx

~(((Flowerpot)))))~ yep blimey is the word lol... its seems like a continuous year of operations and pain, but Im trying to look on the bright side, well, when I find it LOL....xxxxxxxx

~((((((ToriZ))))))~ you should get your Kelly to discribe them in detail lol...xxxxxx

~(((((((((((GoFigure)))))))))))~ my doctors and especially nick me physio have enough to put up with with me as I am let alone giving them more to deal with LOL.... nick just stood there today shaking he head and mumbling something as I nearly went arse over tit in the gym.... but he knows if I had gone over, that things would not of been good, but to ease the situation we both cracked a funny, but gave each other that knowing OH SHIT look lol...... I scare them enough as it is without playing tricks LOL.......xxxxxxxxxxx

~((((((((Buff))))))))))~ moi? lie? I dont think so, I dont lie, I just wouldnt mention things LOL you know so its not technically lying its with holding information :) - but the past couple of days have been really good.... even did some of me course work which I was gonna quit, so things must be creeping towards good right? lol.... Im just going with the flow of the river and see where it takes me....

oh and orders :) well sometimes one has to be forceful with me LMFAO.... or me stubborn head kicks in lol...xxxxxxx

Akelamalu said...

Hi honey I'm back off holiday.

As you know I too just had a spinal and no sedation when I had my knee replacement, unfortunately I didn't get any photos so it's fascinating to see yours and know exactly what mine must have looked like!

I'm so sorry to hear the break in your femur hasn't healed yet - hopefully the tactics you're trying will work and you'll soon be up and running.

I'm thinking of you. xxxx

Anonymous said...

You are my hero. You are the bravest woman in the world and a great example for the rest of us. Especially for chicken-shits like me. I'd probably die of fright before they could get me under.

My only complaint, Marmie girl, is the Gawd-Awful pictures you insist on including in the posts. They make me about puke. It would be tantamount to child abuse to allow your lads to look at them. Are ya daft?

And how is a woman to eat a cookie, drink her tea and read when you leave such horror for the eyes to witness. I cannot tell you how hard it is to read with one's eyes squeezed shut or when peeking between the cracks in the fingers held over my face. Those dammed photos seemed determined to jump out before my eyes.

I am so hoping that every day you heal more and your leg gets stronger. It is high time for life to get easier for you.

Love you my friend...Jolie

SisterOne said...

Eagerly awaiting Part IV! Loved the photos, but I'm wierd that way...

PinkAcorn said...

You're a brave soul thats a bit crazy, too ! No sedation, geesh! Those pics made me squirm and I'm an ICU nurse ! Please take care and no falling or goofing off !!!

Lora said...

I'll bet you sure do set off the bells and whistles when you go thru an airport...:-)

Wish ya quick recovery and your back on your feet ASAP

Love ya

goatman said...

Yup. those little pricks'll get ya every time! ha
You never mention any kind of med to build the bone up. My girl takes something called Forteo to build up the bones and prevent further osteoporosis in her bones. And also much Vitamin D and calcium. Seems like they should be giving alot of such as this for your femur to prevent splitting.
Please stay off of the knee for awhile. Get a cane or something to aid walking and keeping the weight off.
Best to ya from your doodle across the pond!!

Toriz said...

If it's all the same to you, I don't think I'll be getting anyone to describe these particular photos. LOL!

How're you doing, anyway? And, how's Janet?

Robin said...

56 comments and I'm late. I wish I had your strength.

I hope you're doing well.

PLEASE be doing well....

~R

Christy Woolum said...

I am now slowing getting back to my blog friends. What an episode here! You could surely have your own reality show. The supporting players look like good sports. Take care dear friend and I am glad you are so positive this round. My favorite picture is the nurse laughing at you. I bet you are the star of that hospital.lol.

Go Figure said...

MT: I find this post very helpful with my diet! Nothing like a good surgical display to do away with those morning munchies! HA!

buffalodick said...

Post something soon, or I'll make your legs happy they ain't your arms... Never debate that with a man from the Motor City State of Michigan.. The Purple Gang had a satellite branch in Grand Rapids, and I know people who know people.... Miss you, and post something! When you don't, I worry about you... Don't make me hurt you to get better...
With Great Affection,
Your Buf

Robin said...

Okay. Time to talk to us again.

You don't want me to sic Jolie on you, now do you?

MarmiteToasty said...

SORRY SORRY FOR NOT BEING AROUND...... life aye..... sometimes it sucks the life source out of one......

I'll try and catch up with everyone this next couple of days, computer permitting (computer trouble)..

~(((Ake))))~ I travel the world through you holidays and your blob :)

Dont think I will ever be running the marathon again but progress is good, especially this week :)....xxxxxxxx

~((((((((Jolie)))))))))~ LOL@hero, dam now I have to wear me pants on the outside of me jeans and sew a cape :) I just put me hard head on and try the best to cope.... you just dont see the tears and fear through the computer LOL

Things have taken a turn this past week.... so as drained and soul-less and exhausted as I am, inside there is that little smile of hope...

Life is not suppose to be easy for the likes of me, Ive realised that now, so I have to just deal with a shit life LOL

love you Jolie.... very much....xxxxxxxx

~(((((SisterOne))))~ dont know if there will be a PArt IV thought you all might be bored with it all now LOL... xxxxxx

~(((((((PinkAcorn)))))))~ not brave you cant see me shaking in me boots LOL..... crazy maybe :) - LOL@you squirming lmfao..... Ive only fallen twice :) but one was against the wall as the gash on me face will tell ya LOL.....

Your an ICU theatre nurse, oh my wouldnt it of been funny if you was in theatre with me, jebus we would of laffed :)....xxxxxx

~((((((((((((((Lora))))))))))~ Im wondering that lol.... I think maybe all the hardwear I now have inside of me is made of non alarm tripping metal LOL....

No crutches around the house this week, so Im getting there, I didnt say I walk normal though LOL more like a penguin with a hernia :)...xxxxxxx

~((((((((((((((goatman)))))))))))))~ hey you handsome...... nope no meds for bone building, maybe Im to old for that now LOL.... just painkillers which I hate taking so have sorta weaned meself off, except before I go to physio then I take double LMFAO.....xxxxxxxxxx

~(((((ToriZ))))~ LMFAO ...... Janet is sorta ok, just hoping that whatever it is thats wrong with her will sort itself out LOL.... she loves me though and is much happier seperated from the others.... as I type she is in the kitchen eating the cat food LOL....

The bloke that came to clean our carpets on Monday almost choked laffing when he went into the kitchen to get water for the machine and there was Janet as bold as brass sitting in the veggie basket LOL.....xxxxxxxx

~((((Robin)))))~ well as you can tell by no Twaddling, I aint got no strength LOL..... I sorta have shut me lost soul down for a bit, and find it hard to share when that happens....

Im doing better this week, things are on the turn I hope.... the questions I asked nick yesterday about stuff in physio LOL he has now limited me to 3 questions a session LMFAO.....see, I aint one of those that just goes to physio and is quiet.... I ask ask ask about everything.... one needs to know things and outcomes etc....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((InlandEmpireGirl))))))))~ nah no show, it would bore people to tears LOL...... its just my normal boring life I write about :) - do you know that nurse laffed and laffed and laffed...... xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((((GoFigure))))))))))~ LOL like you need to diet.... maybe I should learn to be grossed out by gross photos to aid my diet LOL.... thats the trouble with raising and living with sons, nuffin tends to gross one out :).....

and hey....... fanks you....xxxxxx

~(((((((((Buff)))))))))~ I dropped you an email last night.... oh hush with your threats LOL.... like I would be scared of any humanbeing LOL.... Ive eaten bigger fish then you for breakfast ;) LOL.... and remember I use to work for The Minstry of Defence, so I to know people who know people :) just be warned LOL hahahahaha.... with much love..xxxxxxxx

~((((((Robin)))))))~ cripes, nuffin like threats to get one back on a computer LOL.......xxxxxxxxxxxx

MarmiteToasty said...

oops ~((((Deana))))~ you will never realise how much those hugs are appreciated :)...xxxxxx

Toriz said...

LOL! Yeah, that had to have been a strange thing to walk in to a room and find. And, LMAO at Janet eating the cat food. Too funny!

Helena said...

Hi Toasty!

Just a quick visit to say hi! Finking of ya!

Anonymous said...

I was finkin' of you as well. I just couldn't look at all the blood and guts. The Stickman

Intense Guy said...

I is finkin' of youse (ack!) today... like I wuz yesterday... and the day before that.

:)

Give you a great biggest HUG ever and slips Janet some really tastey kitty food.

Robin said...

Penguin with a hernia.... Oh, the pictures that brings to mind! Hope you are okay....

Mom not Mum (Sandy) said...

I have a horrible knee and I'm sure now that I will keep on denying surgery! WOW!!!

Hope you're healing well since this last post!

Casdok said...

Im afraid i had to scroll past those photos very fast! Ive just had an MRI on my leg and next week having nerve conduction tests as they dont know what is going on. After 3 failed ops on my leg who knows what they are going to do next. So i feel for you.
Hope your heeling nicely and being good about the partial weight bearing.

Robin said...

You might want to check Jolie's blog.

Hope all is better with you.

Toriz said...

Just stopping by to leave a huug, and to let you know I'm thinking of you. Not just today, but every day. Also that I hope your leg is finally healing. *Hug*

Toriz said...

Hmmm... Over enthusiastic on the "u" there. ;)

Bob said...

Hi Marmite, What great pics!!! Just when I was havin' my breakfast an all LOL! I must say your doctors don't seem to be good on choices do they. Bob

Pam said...

jeez, i've been mia from bloghopping for awhile and i come back to this: mctavish w amputated leg :-/ sorry (((scots))). thought it was only the toe? aargh. and then these gross pics ((((mel)))). as much as they were grossing me out, i couldn't help but look at them either lol well, i think it was a good call on your part not to have anything but the spinal block. that definitely had something to do w you feeling poorly last year w your surgery. my left knee had been hurting for two wks and i kept thinking, hope my knee isn't fubar (fucked up beyond all recognition) and need surgery cos it doesn't look a bit pleasant. lol i start physical therapy in a cpl of weeks, the knee just makes a popping sound everyday now lol crikey, it's hell getting old, eh?

i will try to be around more often. started school on monday and tho i only go to one class a day, it has cut into my blogging time lol you should get a twitter or if ya have one tell me what your nic is.

Robin said...

There is relatively good news over at Jolie's.

I hope there's some where you live.

Stop by, please.

MarmiteToasty said...

JEBUS ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE IVE BEEN HERE :( - doubt anyone is left around lol

Major stuff been going on, just trying to figure it all out, it dont ever rain on me, it thunders and lightening and pours and whirlwinds...... Im trying to work out why my life is like it is and whats it all for.......

anyways..... know I have missed everyone..

~((((ToriZ))))~ today both cats AND Janet were sharing a tin of tuna LOL.... they are to dam funny... I tried to get a photo but only got one cat and janet in the shot......xxxxxxx

~((((((((((Lena)))))))))~ fanks you, its nice to know someone is LOL...xxxxx

~((((((((Stickman))))))))))~ oh the blood and guts aint nuffin :) I miss you, wish I lived nearer so I could come over and sit and chat whilst you did ya sticks....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((((Intense)))))))))~ I thinks of you and me special maties every day... and the more Ive left coming here the harder its been :(.. hugs back atcha...xxxxxxxxx

~(((((Robin)))))~ this week Im hobbling like a hobgoblin lol.... I dont like it, and keep asking Nick me physio if this is how its gonna be.... I do feel so very vulnerable being so wobbly.. and Im fighting myself daily....xxxxxx

~((((((MomNmum))))~ I had the other one done just a year ago, so thats 2 majors in just a year but all told 3 years worth of ops on the first one, and cos that was not right I fell and done this one in, I had no choice in the matter..... there is lots they do first before they take this drastic action....sometimes I wish they could of done more before this, cos I dont like how this is at all......xxxxxxxx

~((((((Casdok))))))))~ tell me about failed ops LOL.... Im keeping me fingers crossed for you......xxxxxxx

~(((((Robin)))))~ I went and I cried and I swore and I swore some more....... taint fair.... I just wish there was something I could do, all I can do is be a friend and offer them a roof over their heads if it came to it..... I mean that with all my heart....xxxxxxxx

~(((((ToriZ))))))~ I think of you and everyone daily to...... I just have stuff going on that is keeping me away from you all.... there is healing and there is healing.... take ya pick LOL.....xxxxxxxx

~((((((Bob)))))))~ hey you MrWonderfulGreenFingers... aint the photos just great :) see sometimes it pays to ASK if one is allowed a camera, they loved it I think LOL.....xxxxxxxx

~(((((((Ciara)))))))))~ we go back a long way ever to not connect....ciara my first knee was so painful for 2 years prior to major surgery plus 4 ops on it before that, only go down this road if there is NO alternative.... cos it fucks everything up bigtime...... physical ability, life, work, friends everything.... its totally fucked everything up Ive believed in over the past 18 months.....ok tears now LOL

good luck with the school....... I have caught up with my nvq course work sort of..... they have not been to helpful, something else Ive learnt of late, that most people are out for themselves and fuck everyone else...... maybe I need to take that approach with life and people cos its those sorta people that sail through life without a care....... know you are loved my dear friend, so very much.....xxxxxxx

~(((((Robin)))))~ it was nice to see the note, but Im still so worried..... maybe I should sell my little house and buy a big house over there so all those that need a place can have a room LOL...... Im serious.....

Ive been all out of sorts of late.... aint been able to blob or read blobs or email or nuffin....dont know whats up with me.....I dont like me much, maybe thats it....xxxxxxxxx

Lulda Casadaga said...

Marmie: WOW...you need a big massive HUG. I would not have had the nerve to be awake during that mess...LOL

I haven't been around much either but you have been in my thoughts!
Keep well my friend...and I promise to check in more often! :)

The Mistress of the Moonlight said...

I am so glad that you are okay. Sorry to hear that you have had such a go round. Hey, when you get on your feet would you come and visit myself and Cindy here in small town America? We are so thinking of you. Please remember to keep your chin up and chest OUT. Talk 2 u later, M

laughingwolf said...

'gorilla glue' woulda fixed that in a jiffy :O lol

get well soon! :)

Maggie May said...

I am very sorry to hear that you have had such rough deals this year......... just because of your operations.
Life can be very cruel at times and you have had more than your share of bad things.
How awful that the mother of the little boy didn't honour her contract.
Lets hope that your new door is opening too.

I am referring to a comment on my blog on a post *The Doors*

buffalodick said...

This is your last warning... Post or I ain't comin' back.. We all miss you kiddo, and bitching isn't going to work anymore! You desert me, I will desert you- get it? Tough Love Buff.

Robin said...

Worrying about you, kid.

Let us know you're okay.

Anonymous said...

You are missed - hugs and good wishes!
- Daisy in Phoenix, Arizona

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((Lulda))))~ you are right about needing a hug...... never mind though lol I aint use to them from anyone so I will have to continue to go without lmfao...

hope your well.......xxxxxxxx

~((((Mistress))))~ yeah Im ok.... a few problems but thats me for ya LOL.... Im just one big problem to everyone :).....

I need to save up to come an visit.... only my main earner child's parents have done the dirty on me and not sending him back next week.... so Im well in the shit.... hence me not blobbing, just trying to try and save me house and everything that Ive worked all me life for, and that aint much, just the necessities... me chin is up my soul is down and my expectations on certain people have gone out the window..... I will NOT drop my morals for unmoral others...... sod em, they have to live with themselves being shitheads LOL....xxxxxx

~(((((((wolfie)))))))~ going off to hunt me down some gorrillas LOL...xxxxxxxx

~(((((Maggie))))))~ fanks you..... problems is the story of me life lol..... once again not been able to re-coup proper cos shitheads fling shit at me constantly LOL but Im getting there..

I could well be selling up and moving. it will be good right? to start afresh somewhere else, where no one knows me, so I can just become a hermit LOL.... one door closes for me and the rest just slam in my face LOL but its okay, Im use to it.... I just pick the lock :).. xxxxxxxxx

~((((((((Buff)))))))))~ oh hush... you know I would hunt you down and make your life a living hell, ok, well, more then it is now :)...xxxxxxx

~(((((Robin))))))~ please dont worry about me.... Im okay, truely, sorta LOL....xxxxx

~(((((Anony)))))~ cripes fanks Daisy, whomever you may be :).....xxxxxx

buffalodick said...

Dammit, Melody- say something, even if it's wrong! I've learned the hard way, there are people who care more about you than you care about yourself.... Remember, we exist to serve! I haven't even wanted to kick a woman in the ass for a long time, but I still remember how! Hope all is well with you- really...

MarmiteToasty said...

~((((((((((((Buff))))))))))))~ LOL@kick my arse.... you would be not be the first to try, and you would also not be the last to fail :).....

Im as ard as old nails really, I just tend to whine on here LOL.....

anyways, you must of posted as I was doing a twaddle post :)..... so save your kicks for another day LOL .........xxxxxxxx